UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES OF YESTERDAY

11

"Cheers"

"Cheers"

Everybody tossed as Sharra held her wine glass on the air. We were attending a birthday party, Sharra's old friend of hers. Kahit na si Sharra lang ang kakilala ng celebrant but still andito kaming lima, nakikiinom at syempre nakikikain na rin.

I just wore a simple strapless navy blue bodycon dress paired with a black t-strap heels match with a black sling bag at light make up. I just sat on our reserve table while the girls start to dance and went to the dance floor and grab some guy's. Mag-isa ako rito, drinking some tequila.

I just open my Instagram and what the fuck? tadtad ng messages ni Colt ang sumalubong sakin!

guentherC: Isla, how are you?

guentherC: you okay?

guentherC: your not replying to my
messages

guentherC: I'm going to catch you up!
We're going to have a dinner
again. Be ready

Like what the? is he serious, I immediately replied to his messages. Baka nag-antay sya sa condo ko. We were in good terms now, probably friends having dinners at night. Magaan narin yung loob ko sa kanya but I hate myself na yung tipong unti-unti na akong nasasanay sa presensya niya kahit anong pilit ko na iwasan ang ganoon, nagkukusa parin.

isobelleLV: Colt, wala ako sa condo
ngayon, I'm with the girls
We're on a birthday party.

He immediately online and replied my message.

guentherC: Okay, I'd rather go home now

Naguilty tuloy ako, bakit ba kasi pumunta pa sya sa condo ko at nag-antay, di man lang ako tinawagan, alam naman niyang madalas lang ako mag-online dahil medyo praning narin yung cellphone ko.

isobelleLV: Malapit lang naman tong bar
na pinuntahan namin, you can
pic me up, let's have dinner.

I chatted the girls, nagpapaalam lang ako sa kanila dahil baka hanapin nila ako at mapressure na naman yung kilikili ni Marie, medyo mainitin pa naman yung ulo niya.

I waited Colt outside, it's quarter to 10 naman na kaya medyo maaga pa naman, don't have to worry wala naman akong gagawin bukas.

"Hi, sorry kung napag-antay pa kita, bakit hindi mo ako tinawagan kasi?" I ask him while putting on the seatbelt.

"I don't know that your attending some party and also I don't have your cellphone number" he said while starting the engine of his Mercedes.

Medyo naiilang ako dahil mukhang tahimik pa kami sa makulimlim na gabi, I was just sitting with my head on the window, watching the moon, medyo giniginaw na rin ako dahil nga strapless lang yung suot ko, I forgot to bring jacket though. Niyakap ko nalang yung sarili ko nang biglang umihip ang malakas na hangin, I immediately close the window pf his car, napansin naman niya yon kaya huminto siya saglit at itinabi ang sasakyan, he reached his jacket on the backseat and gave it to me.

"Here, wear this" he said

"Thank you" I smiled

A small smile plastered on his face, medyo naging mahaba rin yung byahe namin dahil bumagal ang usad ng trapiko, embes na restaurant we ended up on sa dagat.

I opened the door and run immediately but before that hinubad ko muna ang heels ko dahil baka kung mapano, mahal pa naman yun. I miss walking on the seaside watching the moon. I smile when the water hits the edge of my toe. I raised my arms as if I could reach the moon, I turned my gaze on Colt and there I saw him staring at me and smiling, napailing nalang ako dahil sa kakaibang titig niya.

I sat on the sand and let my feet get fully wet by the water, Colt sat beside me too, nilapag niya pa yung suot niyang denim jacket sa buhangin. Tinukud ko ang dalawa kung kamay sa likod para maging supurta ko.

"Thank you" I mouthed and smile genuinely.

He just smiled and kiss my forehead, I was shock a little bit because of what he did. Baka ma fall pa ako sa kanya dahil sa ginagawa niya, putcha!

Mahirap yun kapag nahulog ka tapos di ka sinalo, sakit non pre!

"Thanks for bringing me here, akala ko kakain tayo" I chuckled napatawa rin siya dahil sa sinabi ko.

"Ang takaw mo talaga, galing ka namang birthday diba? di kaba kumain?"

"I just eat steak" I chuckled. "Nakakamiss yung ganito" I said, remembering those days that I'm with my parents. Madalas. kami pumunta sa mga dagat at don nag pi-picnic tapos maghahabulan kaming tatlo sa ilalim ng mainit na sinag ng araw but now wala na akong time pumunta dahil sobrang busy ko na rin tsaka wala naman akong sasakyan and also they were not here beside me.

I miss those old days that we were all happy spending time with each other, I wish they were here, cuddling me to this cold and rusty night, I wiped my tears. Di ko namalayang napaiyak na pala ako, akala ko nakamove on na ako sa nangyari? pero bakit tila ang lahat ng bagay na nasa paligid ko ay nagpapaalala sa mga sakit na dinanas ako. I just smiled bitterly while wiping my tears.

"I wanted to move on from those unforgettable memories of yesterday" I mouthed, I miss my parents, humagulhol na ako and here I am, under his warmth cuddle. Hinayaan niya lang akong umiyak sa dibdib niya, gusto ko nang kalimutan yung nakaraan.

"Shhh, It's okay I'm here" he said habang hinahaplos ang buhok ko.

"Bakit parang bumabalik parin yung sakit? I tried to move on and I thought I was" I said sa ilalim ng iyak.

"I'm sorry for bringing you here" patuloy parin niyang hinahagod ang likod ko, sinusubukang patahanin ako mula sa pag-iyak." I'm sorry"

"It's okay, I wanted to move on from those pains whose hunting me everyday" I said at kumawala sa yakap niya. " All I wanted to is to move on"

He cupped my face and wipe my tears by his thumb.

"I'm here okay? don't worry I will be always here" he said and kiss my forehead again.

I embrace myself nang biglang humampas ang malakas na ihip ng hangin. I wanted to stay here for a while and let myself be free from those pain.

Hinayaan ako ni Colt na isandal yung ulo ko sa dibdib niya habang patuloy parin sa pag-uunahan ang bawat patak ng luha na tumutulo mula sa mata ko.

Watching the moon that reflects at the water. The tone of the small waves na humahampas, pati ang tahimik na paligid and also the stars that twinkling high up on the sky.

Before this night ends, I want to be free form those pain at kailangan ko na ring i let go yung mga masakit na alalang naiwan nila Mama na patuloy na humahabol sa kin araw- araw and for now, all I can do is to move on and make those pain a memory.

_________________

-clint