My Only Sin

10: Merge.... Sorta

"Luke don't" I say weakly and he looks over at me "sorry Lila I have to" he grumbles before turning back to Kai they start chanting and soon enough a light starts to shine on them "stop!" I cry out finally being strong enough to get on my knees the lights around us exploding as they start to get black veins on there bodies

I finally see Jo get up she looks at me fear in her eyes as she sees mine that are swollen in tears "Luke No!" She screams there eyes go completely white and my heart rate speeds up and I finally get the strength to stand up I know Jo is screaming but I can't hear her I'm to busy in my own my mind in fact so much so I can see everything in slow motion

I see both of them loose consciousness letting go of each other and falling down in opposite directions then I realized I don't want either one of them to die. Luke is one of my best friends and Kai well I don't know what he is to me but I don't want him gone that's for sure I see Jo get up running towards Luke so I make my way to Kai

I crouch down besides him "Kai what did you do?" I ask my voice shaky as my knees fall to the ground and the tears that were welled up in my eyes finally start to fall I let out a loud sob as I look over at Luke "what's happening?" I ask choking on my own tears "only the strongest one gets to wake up" is all I can hear her say I see damon walk up to her ignoring me and Kai

I place Kai's head in my lap moving the leaves from his hair "please tell me it didn't work and you both get to wake up" I whispered between sobs I know that Jo was screaming at Damon explaining to him what had happened and how it was his fault but I don't know exactly what she said I was still to caught up in my head

I didn't even know how hard I was crying until I felt someone's thumb brush the tears off my face making me open my eyes that I never new I had closed. I looked down to see Kai smiling at me softly no trace of a cocky psychopath anywhere in his expression and I smile back wiping off my tears as we help each other up

I hugged him tightly once we were up then pulled back the thought of Kai being the one who got up barley registering in my head. wait if Kai got up then that means Luke... I turned to look at Jo crying on top of Luke's lifeless body I cover my mouth the tears coming back like a never ending waterfall I let out a loud sob

Loosing my balance only to have Kai hold me by the hips to keep me from falling "I killed him" I muttered and Kai looked at me confused "I took some of his magic before you merged" I whispered sobbing uncontrollably and shaking my head repeatedly "how could I do this!" I cry out falling down

Kai said something I think but I still couldn't hear anything and my vision was a haze of white the tears didn't make it any better next thing I know Kai walks back over to me helping me up and carrying me bridal style somewhere unknown to me

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Kai was holding me close as I cried into his shoulder on my couch "I helped you kill my best friend" I muttered over and over again as he stroked my hair "it's not your fault it's mine" he kept whispering over and over again it's been at least an hour sense Luke died and Kai had walked with me in his arms to my cabin

We've been here for at least 40 minutes whispering the same things back and forth as I choke on my tears and he comforts me "stop please just stop" he whimpers and I look up to see tears welling up in his eyes

Wait tears?

Kai can feel sadness?

Sense when?

Tears start rolling down his eyes and I sit up he closes his eyes "what's happening?" He murmurs and I hold his shoulders "why are you crying?" I ask softly my tears suddenly stopped like they were never there "I feel bad" he whispers before breaking down and hugging me

I hug back surprised and confused but willing to hold him anyways. I wrap my arms securely around his neck "why are you sad?" I finally ask after 5 minutes of him crying into my shoulder in silence "I'm not its Luke" he mumbles and I pull back forcing him to look me in the eye "what?" I ask as he nods

"His characteristics, who he is, they're part of me now" he whispers to me with tired eyes "you have Luke's sympathy" I murmur in awe and he nods slowly "I left Liv all alone" he whispers tears swelling up in his eyes once more I quickly wiped them of with my thumbs "let's make a deal" I say a little above a whisper

His head snaps up and he looks at me confused "we're both going to try to make each other feel better and if I make you feel better first you have to promise not to kill your family and keep it" I say "and if I make you feel better first...... you have to promise not to leave me" he whispers and I look him the eyes

"You don't want me to leave?" I ask and he shakes his head lazily then leans in close to my ear "you're the only one who will ever understand me, I want you to stay" he mumbles softly his lips brushing against my ear making me shiver before he lowers his head ever so slightly and kisses the base of my neck

Slowly and gently working his way up "K-Kai this is serious" I stutter and moan out quietly he raises his head until his lips are brushing against mine "sorry, I can't help it" he whispers before bitting on my bottom lip gently instantly clouding my thoughts with lust