William

Helen?

On the 31st of March 2004, after a long painful labour, I woman names Jane Kyūseishu gave birth to a small baby girl. The girl had light brown hair and soft Pail skin. When she was born, she hardly cried at all, she was quiet, Letting out a small cry every couple minutes but it never got to loud, as soon as her mother took her in her hands she would never want to let her go. She always wanted a little girl, she had already had 3 sons before, so at the sound of the doctor (Mrs. Kasli) said "it's a girl!" Jane was over come with joy. She names her daughter Helen. All thru Helen's childhood she was always the favourite. Loved by her mother more then anyone else in her family, since she was only little she didn't see a problem with the favouritism. Thru out her growing up her mother always tried to make her as girly as possible. Buying her makeup, nail polish, dressing her in dresses and skirts, even on cold days. Her mother would buy her unicorn stuffed animal and painted her room pink and purple, with flowery wall paper covering the walls. All her birthday cakes having frilly pink frosting and "you go girl!" And "girl power!" On the front. Helen appreciated all the stuff her mom was doing for her but felt.., weird, About It. She always loved playing football with her brothers, and having sleepovers in her brothers room, she would purposely fall into mud so she could wear her brothers cloths, she loved reading and always had her hair up in a pony tail. Every day she would wake up in her pastel pink room, getting dressed into her school skirt and shirt, her shoes with little diamond on them. Then she would brush her long silky thick brown hair and put it into a clean pony tail. Before going down stairs, where her mom would be asleep on the sofa, most likely drunk knowing her. After Helen's younger brother was born her husband divorced her. He said she was just using him to get another daughter. After the divorce she.. changed. She became cold and distant. Abusive. Rude. The kids had to teach themselves how to cook and clean since they're mom didn't want to. Whenever their mom was awake and sober she would completely ignore Helen's brothers. And whenever Jane saw Helen with her hair up she would rip out the hair tie and force Helen to keep her hair down, and she would always shave Helen's legs and arms And wax her arms to make her more feminine. According to He mom, "woman can't have hairy arms and legs. It's not lady like." She would also Force her to wear makeup. And have clear skin. She would get bullied at school for hanging out with the boys and spending most her time in the library. But she didn't care. In all the books she read she learned on knights in shining armour! Strong kings! Loving fathers! Then, on her 14th birthday. She read a book about a girl, who became a boy. At the beginning of the read she was confused, "a girl can't become a boy? Right?" She would think. But while she read it he felt a since, of safety. And of love in the book. It made her feel like she had hope. She heard the particular word "transgender" which really stuck out to her. She went on google to do her research on it, she researched for hours! She borrowed multiple books from the library about being transgender, "am i? Transgender..?" She thought. After hours. Days. Months! Of thinking. She decided. Finally. "I. Am. A. Boy.", he went on google and searched up about binders. Gc2b seemed to be the best! But then he looked at the prices, "£45 for a binder..? I could never afford that.. and even if I could I'd have to ask mum to buy it for me.. and she'd be pissed..." she thought to herself with tears in her eyes. The dysphoria was unbearable. But other then that. She wanted to make herself look like a boy. She got out a roll of duck tape, and taped her breasts out the way. Then put on one of her brothers tops. Got a hat and pushed all her hair up under her hat so it looked short and looked in the mirror  "hello...my name is Helen...I use she/her pronouns... and I am a girl..." she said. Staring at herself, it made her feel nauseous. And sad. She took a deep breath "hello.. my name is William. And I am a boy." She said. The words sounding amazing! It made her feel so safe. (From now on I will be using he/him pronouns for him.) but all of a sudden. His mom walks in. "Hey Helen sweetie I got you some new makeu-" his mom stopped dead in her tracks- staring at him. "W-wtf...are you doing..?" She said in a angry tone. "...m-mom...I-I-I can explain..." he mumbled out before getting slapped across the head and getting his hat taken off and his shirt ripped off by his own mother and the tape taken off "YOU. ARE. A. GIRL. DONT YOU DADE TRY AND CHAGE IT!!!!" She yelled. Instantly knowing he is trans. Before hitting him across the face and shoving him to the floor. Then his mom left. Leaving him crying on the floor. "MOM!!" His older brother Tyler yelled before running to William giving him a shirt and keeping his eyes closed until he had his shirt on, he then hugged William "shh shh it's ok it's ok... ignore the hag you can be whatever you want to be..." he communicated in a soft calm tone. All his brothers took him to their room, and relaxed with him and played video with him till he calmed down, after a while, his younger brother Brandon asked "so.. what happened between you and mom..?" He asked innocently. "I uhm... I'm a boy...but mom says I'm a girl..?" William mumbled trying not to get confusing, ":0 are you transssss?" Brandon asked, William looked at him astonished. "You know about trans people?" He asked shocked. "Of course I do! Tyler thought me about it!" He answered with a proud smile, "aww, well yeah, I'm trans," William said, smiling, leon (His other older brother) asked politely, "so, what are your name and pronouns? If you don't mind my asking," Williams face lit up, he was so happy to have loving brothers, "I-I think I like...William? And I use he/him" he said with a shy smile, "OMG that name matches you so much!" Leon said happily "you know what you need? A hair cut!" Tyler said, he's always had a passion for cutting hair, they all went on Pinterest and looked up hair cuts William liked, then. After a couple hours of will getting prepared mentally. Tyler cut Williams hair, and dyed it to a colour he likes. And without looking at his hair William got dressed into a white collared button up shirt, a blue jumper, black pants, and nice shoes, while Tyler was cutting his hair, Leon made him a DIY binder for him to use for a little bit, "ok...you can look in 3...2...1..." tyler said, William opens his eyes, looking himself in the mirror, his eyes filled with joy, his chest was flat, his hair was short, his cloths were masculine, he, felt perfect "I-I-I...I look like a boy.." he said with little tears of joy going down his cheek, "I-I-I'm a boy!" He said with a smile before hugging all his brothers "thank you! Thank you!" He yelled in joy, he felt. Good. For once. "I'm a boy. I'm a boy." He said in his head, over and over, "I'm a boy..." he said. Finally being himself. But that's just where it all began.