Blue & Grey [Not A Fanfic]

Numb

A lot of times people think that depression is a feeling of great sorrow and sadness. And sometimes it is.

But a lot of the time, majority of it for some people. It's a feeling of being numb. Your insides feel hollow. Your brain feels empty.

Your whole life could be falling apart. You could be in a devastating situation. And all you could do is stand there and watch it fall apart as all feeling leaves your body and you become a husk. You could also be in a generally joyful situation, surrounded by friends and loved ones, classmates, people you know. Everyone is happy and enjoying themselves but you just... can't.

Here to you stand and watch everyone enjoy themselves and struggle to fight the overwhelming numbness that you feel creeping over you.

To be, this emptyness. Is more scary than sadness. Because sadness means I'm feeling something.

They say that sadness is a healthy emotion because it means you are alive and capable of being hurt. It means you had something in your life that made you happy, that it's loss made you sad. Sadness means I'm alive and a human being.

Numbness on the other hand, is terrifying. Because I am lacking any emotion  and that means that I'm not feeling emotions that a normal human should be feeling in a given situation. It makes me feel like a puppet. And that's so scary.

So yeah. That's it for now, again comforting words are welcome. If any of you feel similarly then please talk to someone, talk to me, my dms are open and if you're comfortable, you can talk in the comments. I'll make sure it's safe.

Untill next time,
Fel