Invisible String

but nothing was easy between us

"Fuck him Cari, I don't care about him or anything he can do to me, alright?" My heart was racing like it was desperately trying to tell me to do something, to not let what was coming next happen.

"We can't see each other anymore Shan."

And just like that my heart stopped at the next second.

"Why?" I said, not wanting to believe in the words that came out of her mouth.

"I spent days thinking about the options that I had. I thought about leaving things the way it was, I thought about breaking up him, I thought about a million things so we could keep seeing each other, but I noticed that none of those options would work because I knew that no matter what way I found to stay with you he would turn your life into a living hell if he ever found out about us."

"I don't care." I said immediately. "If the other option is to stay away from you he can do whatever the fuck he wants to me." I didn't even try to hold the tear from falling through my eye.

"But I do Shan. I do care." The touch of her fingers swiping away the tear from my skin made me feel even worse. I wouldn't feel her touch again, and that broke me in so many ways that it's hard to describe. "I can't let him ruin your life. I can not let that happen."

"You can't let him control our lives either!" I wasn't thinking straight, but the only thing I knew in that moment was that I had to change her mind as soon as possible. "Is that what you want? You want to give up the things you wanna do because of him?"

"It's not like that."

"Then tell me how it is Cari. You don't wanna see me anymore? Is that it?"

"No!" She said like it was the most absurd thing she ever heard. "Of course not. This is the hardest decision I've ever made in my life." She grabbed my face between her hands and brought her face close to mine. 

"Then don't do it, we can make it work, we will find a way to make it work."

"There is no other way baby." She said touching my forehead with hers and closing her eyes. "I'm sorry, but I'm doing this for you. Please know that I'm doing this for you."

"So how is it gonna be from now on? Are you gonna leave me and stay with him?"

"I'm gonna break up with him, I just need some time, but I promise you I'm gonna do it."

"How long?"

"I don't know. He is not stable right now and I'm scared of what he could do not only to me but to you too if he suspects it has something to do with what happened."

"Did he... did he hurt you before?"

"No. Not yet and not on purpose I guess, but I'm afraid he would if I just break up with him without a motive that he finds at least reasonable if you know what I mean. I can't break up with him out of nowhere and even less when you are involved."

I hated to admit it, but she was right. He would lose his mind and focus all his anger on me, probably. And that could be dangerous.

"If he ever puts a finger on you with that intention I swear to god I will..."

"You will do nothing." Cari said interrupting me. "He is much bigger than you and he wouldn't hesitate hurting you, do you understand me? You will do nothing."

I just let out a sight. That wasn't fair. The fact that an unstable guy had such power over us because he had a crazy obsession and couldn't accept that Cari didn't belong to him was far from my understanding. I felt so helpless because there was nothing we could do about it. Absolutely nothing.

"But what if he..." The possibility of him beating the shit out of Cari gave me shivers.

"I can deal with him. You'll have to trust me on this, okay?"

"Okay." I said, not convinced at all. "And after you break up with him, do you think we could..." I said, hesitating a little.

"He will never accept the fact that I'm not his anymore. While he is still around I'm afraid I will never be able to be with someone else without putting them in danger, do you understand? The fact that we won't be dating anymore doesn't mean that I'm gonna be free, as ridiculous as it sounds."

"We can keep it a secret, nobody else needs to know, I don't care."

"I wish I could say yes, but I don't know how things are gonna be, maybe he becomes a stalker or hire someone to follow me, you know? Nothing is impossible when it comes to Tyler. I can't promise you anything until I know it's gonna be one hundred percent safe."

"That guy is sick." I said, defeated again. That situation was absurd.

"You were right. Every time you tried to warn me about him, you were right and I never listened. I feel so stupid."

"You're not stupid Cari, and it's never late, I'm glad you finally see what I've always seen in him. Just promise me you will be careful okay? Don't try to break up when you're alone with him and there's no one that could help you if he loses his mind."

"I won't."

None of us said a word for the next minutes. The sun was completely gone and the sky was already dark. There was only the light poles by the pier lighting up the place now. That was probably the last time we would be alone for who knows how long and that was literally killing me. I knew it was wrong and wouldn't help my case at all, but the next thing I knew I was taking her face between my hands and our lips were touching, kissing each other with the urge of someone who knows it's gonna lose something they were always craving for.

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