Chaotic Mind

Change

there's something wrong with me, i think.

people are afraid of me, and i feel like i hurt people more than what i realize.

i've always thought of myself as a nice person, and i've been trying to become more gentle and kind, but i feel as though i'm heading in the opposite direction.

what am i supposed to do?

how do i fix my toxic traits?

yes, i've been through trauma, but it doesn't excuse my own toxic behavior.

i can't forgive myself for hurting the most important people in my life, and i'm not sure i ever will.

i don't know where to start.

i've grown up in the past year, and i feel like i'm more patient and gentle, but i need to be even better.

i'm so scared that i'm pushing people away again, and that's not what i want.

i want to change, to be better.

i'm scared.

i don't feel like i'm a good partner. i have so many more toxic characteristics than what i thought.

i need to change, and i want to.

but where do i begin?