Feelings Within The Rain {{MewGulf}}

☂ Chapter 13 ☂

"it's just a stupid thing, we can talk about it some other time" he says that but he eyes says it all, I faintly smiled laying on my back

"it started when I was in middle school, I was a first year and he was a year older" I started

"huh? What are you talking about" I signed to him to lay next to me while I kept looking up the roof as the memories I locked begin to rush out of their cage

"I was a very timid and couldn't communicate well with others, it was really hard for me to make friends but one day, I was suddenly approached by him asking me to lend him an English dictionary, since then we got to talk a lot more, he would come to my class sometimes during lunch break, or we would me on the roof and at some point we started walking home together, luckily our houses were in the same direction, for me he was my first friend and I was over the clouds that I finally made one, thanks to him I became more open and started making new friends and hang out with them, by my third year I became a normal boy, who can communicate and have fun with others, and his high school was just next to the middle school so we still could spend a lot of time together yet at some point I noticed that I was feeling different about him, he was special to me and I find myself following him and wanting to be with him" I stopped feeling a little bitter about those memories

"it's fine Gulf, you don't have to tell me"

"I want to, just listen, I even started getting shy around him and I feel my heart beating loudly, a feeling I didn't have for any other person before, I was excited to attending the same high school as him, slowly I stared to realize my feelings for him, hearing others talking about their lovers, reading stories, watching other couple, I was shocked when I figured out that I actually love him in a romantic way, I tried avoiding him but he kept following me and when I lost to my feelings I ended up confessing to him, he did look surprised but he actually accepted my feelings and we started going out for real, as boyfriends, I felt like flying whenever we held hands, we kept our relationship a secret but we enjoyed our time alone, we went on dates, trips, we even naturally started kissing, I really loved him so much, I was prepared to give him my everything, one my third year, we were discovered by my parents when I secretly skipped school and went to visit him at his university, my father slapped me for the first time in my life looking enraged, they even was going to lock home and finish my studies alone but I kept begging them every day to give us a chance, I kept confessing to them that I really loved him and apologized for disappointing them, I kept fighting with them for two months, for two months, my parents wouldn't even look me in the eyes, yet I never give up and kept bickering with them until they finally let me return to school but they still disapproved of me dating a boy, that's why I decided to work hard to attend a university closer to his and so we can start live together, I was already a novice writer back then so my time was full between my high school studies and writing but I kept sparring some time to call him on the phone and at least enjoy small talks"

"you started writing since high school?"

"I did some writing for drama clubs during elementary and middle school and when my younger brother found them he encouraged me join a writing competition and that's how my career began, yet that didn't stop me for wanting a happy long life with the boy I loved, when graduating, I was imagining us living together and being lovey-dovey all the time away from our families, I started searching for an apt close to our universities, I worked day and night to finish a story for another competition back then, so it took me some time to settle it and get free time, as soon as I arrived I ran to his uni to surprise him yet when I found him busy talking with some professor, I stayed a little far not wanting to bother him, I sat on a bench waiting for him for over 4 hours, it was almost 7 pm so I decided to go search for him, when I asked around I was told he is working as an assistant for a professor, I didn't want to go bother him during his work but I just couldn't help myself and went to the professor office peeking from the outside window" I closed my eyes calming myself

"Gulf, I understand so let's sto-" I shushed him

"I froze watching them, I felt everything breaking inside me, I stood there while they were making out, not just kissing, but they were having sex right in front of my eyes, the boy who I've loved for years was enjoying himself with a professor, when I was noticed by them, they both looked terrified, he quickly wore his clothes and jumped from the window after calming the scared man, I found myself running out of there, I kept running not looking back, it started raining dogs and cats while my vision was already blurred by the none stopping tears, and they he caught me, in the middle of the streets..." (A/N the rest of his talk is the beginning of the first chapter) when I finished talking I felt so sad yet so relieved, I didn't know that telling someone about those memories would make me feel better, I found myself in Mew's embrace, he held me so close yet gently like I was some fragile glass, I felt like I was melting by his tenderness and overflowing feelings

"now that I understand everything, I'm more determined to make you mine Gulf" he blurted out taking me aback

"think of that memory as an experience that helped you writing your books, just like your Italy trip, I know you can't forget about him but I want you to move on and live your life, locking your heart won't help you, set it free so that your scars can heal while finding a new true love" he was on top of me lovingly rubbing my hair and cheek, he leaned placing his forehead on mine while we kept staring into each other eyes, I felt embarrassment engulfing me as my heart was thumping louder than usual, a strong beats were destroying the chains while his real love feelings he has for me was seen deep into his eyes, into his soul, unintentionally, tears came rushing sliding down my cheeks

"I truly love you Gulf, more than anything in this world, I will treasure and make you that happiest man, I will prove it to you so please stop hiding and don't be afraid because I will always be with you, I love you" he leaned kissing me so lovingly that made me shiver, his affectionate words kept throbbing inside me as he softly wiped my tears and hugged me again, no one has even done or said things like this to me, even that bastard never really showed me or even told me that he truly loved me, I think I was wrong all along... this is true love

"thank you... thank you" I held him back tightly burying my face into his chest, I was actually holding myself back from confessing, this time I want it to be different, I want to clear everything before seriously starting a relationship with Mew and the first thing I must do is to confront my family, I won't repeat the same mistake as before... wait for me Mew, soon we will be together

❤️🌧🧡🌧💛🌧💚🌧💙🌧💜🌧🖤🌧🤎🌧❤️

It's almost midnight and I'm supposed to be sleeping right now since I have to wake up around 5 am but couldn't stop myself from finishing this chapter today ^^"

Well See you next chapter!!!