LEMONADE 2||

Chapter 32: I Been

"MAKE ME UNDERSTAND... MAKE ME UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING. I AM SO TIRED OF YOU MAKING ME FEEL LIKE IM THE ONLY GIRL IN THE WORLD. THEN TWO WEEKS LATER THERE'S SOME OTHER BITCH WITH UNFINISHED BUSINESS. THERE'S ALWAYS A BITCH WAITING HER TURN AND IM FUCKING SICK OF IT" she screamed to the top of her lungs. He didn't say anything he wasn't prepared for this moment to happen so quickly. He planned on telling her today.

"This is what I've been trying to tell you about... Lauren is my ex okay.... she told me a few weeks ago that she's dying of cancer. I've been with her supporting her... and we've been having sex. Lauren holds a special place in my heart, she helped make me into the man I am today, and I just couldn't cut her off for you" he admitted. Josie sat there taking in all that information. She literally felt sick to her stomach she wanted to scream, she wanted to say every hurtful word in the dictionary to him. She crossed her arms shaking her head in disbelief

"Wow, I was never enough for you," she said as tears ran down her eyes. "Come on Josie don't say that, that's not true," he said. "So, if she wasn't "dying" would you be with her? She asked. "NO," he said. "You wouldn't be with Lauren if she wasn't dying? She asked

"No, we're in two different times in our lives. I want to settle down with you, her life already started... the reason why our relationship didn't work out" he admitted. Josie laughed "Victoria was right" she laughed. Ricky's eyes squinted confusedly. Victoria doesn't associate with anyone in his family. "Victoria? The most bitter of them all, please get the fuck outta here with that bullshit" he laughed.

"The strategic gifts, flowers, the affection, the time and attention. Is this some kind of scheme to keep me in line? She asked talking to herself.

"Do you hear yourself? He asked

"YOU ARE EXHAUSTING," she said trying to leave. "ME? IVE BEEN TRYING TO SHOW YOU THAT IM A CHANGED MAN BUT ALL YOU'VE EVER DONE IS REMIND ME THAT IM STILL THAT SAME AINT SHIT NIGGA 4 YEARS AGO. I STAYED DOWN, I COURTED YOU. I BEEN BY YOUR SIDE. IM KEEPING YOU PROTECTED. YOU WANT TO ACT LIKE YOU'RE SO CONFUSED WHEN IT COMES TO US, BUT WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS TO YOU. YOU WANT ME TO HOLD YOU AT NIGHT? What about my feelings too? But does that shit not matter because of who I am? He challenged

"AND? I never asked you to save me or protect me from anyone ... you did all of that and still had a bitch on the side from Khloe, Shani, Jayde, now Lauren... there has always been someone on your roster. You weren't all me, you pressured me and made me feel like since I was indecisive I don't love you which caused you to hold back... so what is your love and security for me conditional? Since I'm a little cautious about you... I don't deserve your support? Because you've been a mess and I've been there" she scoffed crossing her arms.

"Shit I could ask you the same thing. Is your love for me conditional? Huh? I've been patient and I literally started talking to Lauren last week. She hasn't been in my life. I moved on" he said

"Last week huh? Well, how ironic how fast you fucked her... You're so fucking easy, just a hoe ass nigga... where are your morals? she rolled her eyes.

"Now you just saying anything at this point, and you being real disrespectful, bring that shit down" he warned. "Fuck you, Ricky, now is not the time to try to check me" she yelled

Cortez

Cortez and Victoria sat in silence for hours. His arms were tied so tightly to the chair it was almost impossible to get up, but he wasn't going out sad like this. He got up with the chair attached to him scanning the floor for any items that could be used to cut the rope. He had a trick up his sleeve. He started running backwards trying to break the wooden chair. Victoria rolled her eyes in defeat. "Fucckk" he yelled. He struggled walking back over he sat back down. "I have a plan," he said. He noticed she was tied with duct tape and he was tied with rope. "When they come back I need you to use the bathroom look for anything you can find a lighter, razor a piece of tile store it wherever you can" he looked around. "And you have tape so when you wash your hands soak your hands under so that adhesive can come off ight?