the red string of fate (Ongoing)

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Adeline's POV

as I walked into my room I started to throw up I don't know what this feeling was it wasn't new but not so familiar as well

I looked around for something sharp the sound of my own heartbeat rang in my ear it was unbearable I don't know what I was feeling but it wasn't something unfamiliar 

(T/W❗🚫 self-hurt if you're sensitive to this topic than please skip I cried while writing this but this was important)

my eyes suddenly fell on a sharp knife resting on the table where a few books and a basket of fruit were present I ran towards the table and grabbed the knife

I removed my dress and looked at my left thigh there were a lot of scars some of them were healed and some were fresh I pointed the knife on my thigh, pressed it and moved it towards me the stinging feeling of my  flesh being cut like a piece of paper made me feel alive I didn't know why I do this but it feels relaxing I know it's wrong but I can't stop I want to stop but I can't.... It's the only way I can feel like a human

"I can't" I cried silently "I can't" I said and once again stabbed my self I don't remember how many times I stabbed myself I felt asleep on the floor

I woke up and looked here and there it was still early in the morning there was a lot of blood on the floor It usually don't effect me that much but today it hurts a lot to know that there's no one that can hurt me except myself

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I walked into the bathroom I let myself take a long cold bath I felt relaxed when the cold water hit my wounds and I don't remember how long I stayed in the bathroom I treated Mt wounds and covered them with a clean piece of cloth
I tried to walk but I couldn't.I got out from the bathroom wearing comfortable clothes

"clean this" I ordered as one of the maid came inside the room she didn't ask anything and quietly cleaned the mess

"bring a glass of apple juice" I ordered while looking out of the window
"yes your Majesty" she left and I kept looking outside trying to figure out why I did what I did I have everything still... I'm the only person that can hurt me and I don't but it's now getting out of my control I'll not do that again I promised to myself once again

the door knocked "come in" I said and it was the maid she was holding a glass
"give it to me" I said and she carefully gave me the glass filled with apple juice

"don't let anyone come in the room if jack asks about me tell him I'm not feeling well and taking some rest" I said and she bowed to me
"yes,your majesty" she said and walked out of the room she closed the door I took a sip from the apple juice it tasted the same I finished my drink and covered myself with the blankets and drifted into sleep

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{Jack's POV}

"prince jack I'm telling you Queen said she was going to take some rest" the maid said to me but I wanted to see her because that's the only way I can believe that she's fine

"I'll just take a quick look" I said and she opened the door I quietly looked into the room and saw her sleeping peacefully her face was facing the other side I didn't want to disturb her so I didn't went inside and closed the door quietly
"don't let anyone disturb if there's a problem come to me I'll be in the practice arena" I ordered and walked away from there I opened the door to Atlas's room and he was still sleeping

"hey wake up" I said while I snatched away his blanket he woke up and looked around while narrowing his eyes

"take a shower and come to the practice arena or I'll pour a bucket of cold water on you" I said and he looked at me with puffy eyes
"get up NOW" he got up from the bed and stood straight "I'll see you at the practice arena" I said and walked away he looks delicate as a flower petal and I knew Adeline she is going to make him like a diamond beautiful yet hard to break

(all the characters in this book will somehow represent a side of me)