My Lost Romance CS2 ( Self-Published Under F&L MediaHub)

Chapter 13~Heartbeat Awaken~

"You sympathize with others pain better than anyone else." My heart shouted silently. Kase diyan ka magaling! Ang magkunwari na okay ka lang pero ang totoo you are really broken. Yes! I am. Because I want to lessen the pain atleast. Rumi is my friend so I want to comfort her until she realize that it's enough to be stupid. Until she awakened in her nightmare with that jerk. Hindi ko siya nilubayan hanggang sa mag-uwian na dahil baka makipagkita na naman siya sa lalaking iyon.

Melfeulle and Kim was curious about what we're talking kaya sinabi ko naman sa kanila kung ano na naman ang nangyayari kay Rumi. Ilang beses na rin naman nila nakita na umiyak si Rumi dahil sa Fhordz na iyon. My attention that day was all her. That I almost forget my own situation, my own loneliness. Charooot.!

"He is a jerk. You need to be careful because in this world were almost everyone meets a jerk. I am too. I met someone like him." Oh see. I stating the fact.

"Huuhh? Totoo? Sino naman iyon? Is it Jarron ba?." Napalingon sa akin si Rumi nag-uusap pa rin kami habang tinatahak ang daan patungo sa karenderya ni ate Anna. Nagtitinda kase siya ng barbecue tuwing hapon kaya niyaya ko si Rumi. Pero ang totoo para naman maaliw siya. Good.! I can divert your attention girl. Ayaw naman sumama ng dalawa. Trauma pa si Melfeulle sa dumplings na iyon.

"No. It's not him. Jarron is crazy." Tanggi ko. "Ey sino ba?." Rumi ask curiously.

"Ohh Just.. He is no one. Dumaan lang siya sa buhay ko. Saglit lang naman. So you don't need to be serious girl!" Nasa tapat na kami ng karenderya ni Ate Anna at binati ko siya para maiba ang usapan namin habang papasok kami but..

"That's what you do?." Madaldal rin naman pala ang babae na ito eh. Or curious lang talaga siya.

"Hmmn No. Slight. Kaya don't be serious about him okay? He is not worth it. Now, just do hang-outs, play with them, have fun and stop anytime. Don't lose your self to them. They all liars and jerks." I saw her eyes sparkling dahil sa mga sinabi ko. At kahit ako ay hindi ko rin alam bakit nasasabi ko ang mga iyon. I am comforting her? Or myself?

"Liars?." Rumi nodded. "Yes! Everything about boys is a lie. The way they talk. The way they act. The way they treat you was all a lie. So careful."

"Calm down, Keith. I am the one who felt pain. It seems may pinagdadaanan ka rin huh?."

"Hindi wala." Tanggi ko. "Ohh okay. Through experience?." Kulet ni Rumi.

"A bit. Kaya stop thinking about him. Look! It's nice to be single right? No pain, No attachment, No commitment." Masaya at proud na sabi ko kay Rumi while she's taking our foods.

"Ang tanong. Are you really happy?." Hindi ako nakasagot agad because at the same time when she ask random question my heart longing for someone. I was thinking about him.

"Of course, I'm happy.! I'm contented with my life. Tsaka wala pa sa isip ko ang lovelife na yan. Focus on studies. Okay? You too."

"Yes mom.!." She smiled. And I think she's okay now. I'm eating but I think the foods is not enough for me to divert my attention. Masaya ba talaga ako? I lied again. At the end of conversation mapapaisip ka na lang at itatanong mo ulet sa sarili mo ang mga tanong na hindi mo kayang sagutin. I admit sometimes I really lookin' forward that someone there besides me when I'm alone or walking alone in the street. Someone tells me he loves me. Someone ask me what I love to do during free time. Someone who take care of me when I'm sick and someone who'll stay with me if I'm feeling sad. Actually it's not someone. It's him the reason why my mind were occupied a lot this passed few days.

After we ate niyaya ko si Rumi na maglakad-lakad papunta sa isang park sa di-kalayuan. May maliit na plaza sa bukana ng isang subdivision na kaharap ng University. Madami rin naman ang mga taong nagpapahangin at nagpapalipas oras sa lugar na iyon.