My Lost Romance CS2 ( Self-Published Under F&L MediaHub)

Chapter 1~I'm yours~

Warning: SPG! Young reader please skip this page.

Love is not a losing game.

So stop saying after they left; you lose. Because if someone left you or broke you at sobrang nasaktan ka it doesn't mean na talo ka, it doesn't mean she/he won. You both lose. No one claimed they won for breaking or abandoning someone. Kahit ano pa man ang reason nang paghihiwalay ninyo ay pareho kayong nawalan, pareho kayong talo. Tandaan na walang nanalo sa ngalan nang pag-ibig.

Love is a precious thing need to be treasure for the rest of your life because when love real- it changes you into a better person, you inspired by them at first, you attracted by them for unknown reason that's why you fall in love. Your heart committed into someone who's doesn't force you to reciprocate your feelings. That's your choice so don't regret if love left you instead embrace the heartache to be a greatest person in your next story. But my 'next story' haven't come. Doesn't come., siguro dahil hindi pa ako handa at natatakot akong maulit ang nakaraan ko. I'm afraid to be left behind again.

I, Aurry Keith Fabion my memories haunting me everyday and night. Napapaisip ako minsan if what I am in my past life at bakit ako iniwan at binaliwala nang taong sobrang minahal ko. I lost because I gave my all at a young age. But when I feel hate about my stupidity in my past; that hate loosen my mind and it made me alive at the same time. I need to hate that person who stole my life but I can't. I really can't.

Five years had passed. But our memories is just like yesterdays.

"We can't do this Aeo.." I told him while his arms cornering me, my back rested in the large trunk of tree. We're in the tree house. His family owned a huge ranch in Tagaytay City. His father built that tree house when Aeolus was a little boy. That old tree house was supposed to be our playroom since birth. But now that we grown up that's our favourite rendezvous. Our hideouts. Our home for puppy love.

"There's no reason we can't." His voice is like a lullaby with passion. He is like cute kitten into my eyes. "I know." I agreed. Because our feeling are mutual.

"I can't take this feelings when I'm with you Aurry." His hand running through my hair while looking at me in the eye.

"I know Aeo. But.. but we're so young." I'm afraid if my parents knows about what were planning to do. Not afraid of losing him because I know Aeolus was so damn in love with me. Everyday he always made me remembered that he likes me, he loves me, he never left me until we grow old enough and the most romantic scene - he promise that he will wait for me until I'm become his wife when we're both ready to build a family. Since first he told me he loves me and no one can replace my throne in his heart. So do I. He is my everything. We're in the same school since Grade School but during High School; Aeolus enrolled to private school and me in public school.

Everytime I got jealous because some of his classmates flirting with him while it happened that I'm visited him to his school during occassions or kind of schools activities that outsider are allowed to enter in their school. He excitedly run towards me makes me calm and make them jealous as well. He is so proud that I'm his girlfriend and I am too but my parents were strict so hindi ko man lang siya napakilala sa mga magulang ko or kahit isama ko siya sa school ko to meet my friends there, the reason na nag-aaral din ang bunso kong kapatid sa school na pinapasukan ko so baka magsumbong siya sa parents namin at takot ako. Mataas ang pangarap nila para sa akin at ayoko na madissappoint ko sila.

That's so complicated. I can't even brag about him to my four bestfriends. Jhyll, Lance, Abby and Meagan. My close friends in highschool days. Kahit na gusto ko na sa kanila i-share ang lovelife ko but I'm afraid baka malaman ng kapatid ko at isumbong ako kila mama at palayasin ako sa bahay. Aeolus and me was in public relationship to his family and friends at kabaliktaran sa side ko. No one knows about him. But it's okay when his around I feel like a princess in front of him. I feel safe with him. I feel love with him.

BUT now I'd realized that his not freaking in love with me because after he stole my innocent mind he left me. He left me alone. He migrated in Canada with his parents and two siblings after the end of our 3rd year High school, after one week of our unforgettable memories in that tree house. I can't reach him. He don't even bother to give me his address or phone number. No one knows the reason why they migrated, our family is not so close either. We're just a long distance neighborhood. It's a puzzle to me kung bakit hindi man lang siya nagpaalam, tatanggapin ko naman kung anong reason niya. Pero hindi. Our relationship has end like nothing happen. But after what happen. After that time. That memories haunting me.

Sunsets glimmering through the horizon. That's very hallucinating views every time we're at the tree house sitting and cuddling each other. We're enjoying watching the sunset slowly hiding in the highest peak of mountains.

"We're not young Aurry." He whispered me while kissing my hair. "I promise to be gentle." He adds. I can't resist our feelings because even my body saying that I can let him do what he pleaded. Actually we'll do kissing in our first anniversary, atfirst it's just a smack but when we used to do it almost a weeks, we feel hungrily for another thing. And this is it.

"You can't move if you wont Au.. Let me do this thing. You can close your eyes if you're shy." Then I slowly lying in a bare wooden bed while his kissing me passionately. Wala na akong nagawa kundi ang magpaubaya na lang sa ginagawa niya perhaps I want it too. At young mind I know we're doing what lovers do. Aeolus continue caressing me, his kissing my lips while touching my private part and it adds tingling through my whole veins.

"I don't know that it feels so nice." I whispered to him. "See. I told you we must do it." He'll saying it while undressing me.

"You' are so beautiful Aurry. Promise me na ako lang makakakita ng katawan mo."

"You jerk! Stop talking may makarinig sa atin." Tanging nasabi ko but deep inside sobrang kinikilig na ako.

"Close your eyes Aurry. I'm removing my pants." At sumunod naman ako sa sinabi niya. After a second nasa ibabaw ko na siya. He is moving mysteriously then I slowly open my eyes while his touching the center of universe for him to enter inside.

"Aurry.. you know that I love you right.?." He asked randomly. "Yeah." I'll manage to answered though I feel suffocating. "Please don't shout okay?."

"Why? Are you planning to hurt me.?." Hindi siya sumagot at naramdaman kung may humapdi sa bahaging yun. "Aeo!!!! Masakit..." He kiss my lips torridly para hindi ako makasigaw while hushing me. Then he started moving on top of me and a minute pass while he is still reaching the depths within me the pain slowly fading. Strange feelings visited me this time it looks like my whole body was floating in the clouds because of what Aeolus did to my delicate part. I had electrifying feelings when his dancing through me and inside me. So now, our innocence mind abandoning us. I'm so high and madly in love to this man on top of me.

"Aurry.. promise me that you're only mine since forever. Okay?." Aeolus talking while groaning at the same time; it's like a music into my ears so I must stay silent.

"I love you Aurry Keith Fabion." He muttered while pushing in and out inside me. I was thinking if it's necessary. But his eyes filled with love and lust.

"I love you too Aeolus Heredia and I promise that I'm yours till the end."

I found my self smiling. Damn! Ito yung sinasabi ko na hindi ko kaya magalit sa kanya. Until now I'm hoping that he'll be back again. But five years had passed it's impossible if he still remember me. It's really impossible at ayaw ko na rin siya makita dahil kailangan ko siyang kamuhian sa pag-iwan sa akin. That time I'm 15 years old and he is 17. I can't imagine my young life without him. Pero hindi ko naenjoy ang five years na nagdaan dahil hindi ako makamove-on sa kanya though marami rin naman nanligaw sa akin at nagkaboyfriend din naman ako once but it never works. It never works dahil ang palagi kong naalala ang sinabi ko na 'I'm yours till the end.'

So I wasted half of a year for mourning because almost half of my heart died, almost half of my life died. I want to move on from him but I can't. I want closure in order to do that plus I'm so young back then., I don't know how to forget him. Worst thing is. I really don't know the reason why he left me, baka ako yung may mali? Nagkulang ba ako? May hindi ba ako nagawa? O nagawa na hindi niya gusto. Mahirap at hindi ko talaga alam paano siya patatawarin at paano siya kalimutan.

Z