Hotel Strangers equals Disaster

HSED 23.5 🏨

(っ◔◡◔)っ 💖 RAYKA 🤦🏻‍♀️

I tried to call him, but he continues to walk away. For almost seven years, that was the first time I heard all those words from him. Mixed emotions yung naramdaman ko nung inamin niya na he always listens, kasi he thinks I am more, little did he knew na kaya I am more because no matter whom I ended up to be, there is someone who would always support me, that is him.

He believes in me, kaya siguro it turns out na lahat ng desisyon ko and advices work well. I can't stop thinking na baka iniisip niya na we are not on the same level. I know he understands me, kaya even we are just prentending nung una, never kaming nagkaroon ng major fight.

Ngayon lang.

I love him but getting married immediately just to please my dad is unappropriate, ayokong madaliin ang isang bagay na pareho pa kaming hindi handa. Ayokong one day, instead of a happily ever after ay mapupuno ng what ifs, because naiwan na namin lahat ng pwedeng lessons we can learn sana kung hindi kami nagpakasal agad.

Sa dami ng thoughts that was running off my mind, Ate Sarah was standing at the door pala. When I saw her she immediately came infront of me.

"Alam mo, narinig ko lahat" she proclaimed.

I became confused.

"Pupuntahan sana kasi kita, cause I want to be updated sana tungkol sa inyo ni Lio. Kanina kasi sa reception masayang masaya kayo"

I smiled and looked down. I remember how happy I am when finally Im his real girlfriend. When after years of pretending, the guy I am with the whole time will turn out pala the most important guy for me.

"Naiintindihan kita, pero kung ako yung nasa posisyon ni Lio, siguro dahil mahal kita, kaya may mga bagay na kailangan kong ipilit dahil ayokong masaktan ka" Ate Sarah said

That shifted my gaze kay Ate "But you know naman na ayokong madaliin yung mga ganong bagay since bago palang kami, and I am not sure If I can do all my responsibilities as his partner, If ever we stick to his plan" I explained.

Ate grabbed my hands "I dont know if this will work for everyone, pero kami ni Kuya Paul mo, nakasurvive naman kami, 16 lang ako when I got pregnant, 18 ako nung nagpakasal, aaminin ko wala sa plano ko yun, kasi gusto ko non makapagtapos ng college kasi I want to make Dad happy and syempre maging good role model sayo"

I remember Kuya Paul right away "If nandito kaya si Kuya, what would his opinion be?"

"For sure hindi niya sasabihin agad kung kanino siya papanig, magsasabi lang yun ng words of wisdom" according to Ate.

"Like?"

"Minsan hindi mahalaga kung handa ka sa isang bagay, gagawin niyang example ang love for sure, sasabihin non yung pagibig nga biglang dadating, hindi mo na namalayan andyan na pala, Naga-agree naman ako. Sometimes ready or not, what matters is kung paano mo haharapin matapang ba? masaya? galit? at kung paano dadalhin ang sarili mo habang nasa proseso ka. Kahit ako hindi naman ako naging handa, I didn't have any orientation kahit kay Mommy nung magiging misis na ko, yet I made it, kasi I believe na hindi ako ilalagay sa position na yon If I cant make it, naniwala ako sa pagmamahal na meron ako para kay Paul, siguro nakakadagdag din sa confidence ko yung alam kong tamang tao ang pinipili ko" Ate stated.