The Mistress

XXXIX

🎵 Zara Larson - uncover

Have you ever gotten to the point in your life where you just want to relive each day for the rest of your life

I love my life.
I don't think I have ever felt better about myself as much as I do now
and it all thanks to him

I know, at the back of my head that I am in a relationship with a married man.... I did try to stop but I doubt if there's anyone in the world that can make me feel the way he makes me feel

He makes me feel so special, so relevant, like am a part of something important

Gradually we are growing inseparable
When he's leaving I have to count down the hours till I will see him again and if he can't come the next day I have to dream of him or else I won't get any sleep

These days I rarely find time to sleep...which never use to be a problem, When he's around, we are always all over each other

Today was no exception.....
After an intense night, he had gone to the kitchen to brew coffee ☕️
I wore his white shirt an habit I have grown fond of overtime

He smiled as I strolled into the living room, he handed me a cup of coffee and we took our seat on the couch
I sat in between his legs and lay my back against his chest

He sniffs my hair and play with my hair... I still don't get why he likes doing that

We sat quiet for a while.......

"So....... You are awfully quiet today"

"Ohhh am just too happy time to find words"

"And what is it that makes you so happy"

"Isn't it obvious.... You of course"

"Ohh I see... I really want to hear you talk.... Tell me anything"

"Anything like what..." I chuckled

"Like about yourself. What's your story"

"But You already know everything about me"

I try to turn and look at him but he held me back

"Stay still"

"Okayyy so, what do you want to know about me"

"Well everything...... I know you are a very talented designer, You eat too much junk and gain no weight, You apparently love to swim... You love watching horror movies and you happy with me"

"Okay...... But that's basically everything"

I laughed

"No its not... Except you don't trust me of course"

"I trust you more than anything in this world.... Felix"

"Then what is the problem"

"I just don't feel comfortable talking about my past"

"It's OK"

I crunched my teeth together and let the memories flow in....
The pain... The hurt... The lost

"I'm not exactly the happy baby type... I was always a wild child.... An unlucky one at that... I was arrested for underage drinking at 16, arrested again for violation of traffic rules at 19... And I wasn't even the one driving. I was just protecting a friend.... And I dropped out of college when I couldn't keep up"

I rolled my eyes and try to even my heavy pounding heart beat

He placed his hand on my chest and I almost melt...
Where have you been all my life Felix
When I needed someone to make me feel better and take this weight off my shoulder?