My Poetry

Stupidity and Pride -HELP PLEASE! >.<

Okay, seriously people, this I fear is rubbish. I mean, in my opinion, it starts off okay, AND THEN I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO END IT so it kept rambling and ramblling and rambling and--I need help! Pleaasee?! And also, I had no idea what the title should be so I picked to words from it >.< Help needed there as well.. Yeah :)

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STUPIDITY AND PRIDE

Who is watching me now, who is watching you?

None of us know how to act or even what to do

We know what we did was wrong, and what we said-

That when we spoke in anger, all we saw was coated in red

A knife is an infamous weapon, and so is a gun

Guilty of many a crime of which few can run

But even more dangerous is my untrained tongue

Did I even do what I did for fun?

Listen, I didn’t smile afterwards, I promise you

Understand I didn’t enjoy it, you have no clue

I swear I felt sick with myself, hated what I’d done

I just hated how much I’d changed and what I’d become

A war had begun when you ran from me crying

I may have looked strong, but inside I was dying

I’d exposed your secrets! Spat each one into your face

Kicked you while you were down- hit hard, just in case

Memories of us flashed before my glassy eyes

When you answered my desperate pleas and each of my silent cries

You were there for me; it was you who helped me shine

I was there for you, too, once upon a time

You struck back eventually, your heart like a vice

We fought fire with fire, and battled ice with ice

But contrary to popular thought, the world did not end

Only my heart was shattered, my heart I couldn’t defend

You shot down my confidence, attacked my pride

I insulted your family and hurt those by your side

Jealousy and anger, confusion clouded our visions

They picked up the controls and guided our actions

Did you know then that I was in love with you?

That when you met her/him had no idea what to do?

I messed you up purposely, I covered up my weakness

Yet every time I see you I’m still rendered breathless

This silence, it’s killing me, slowly but surely

No matter how my soul fights, the quiet battles like an army

Why won’t you talk? Say it, say you forgive me

Whilst no one is watching, dismiss my stupidity.

I didn’t think you could now; the wound constantly hurts

None of us can forget it, despite our efforts

We can never fit together again, our glass- like pieces, 

They’re too small, we’re shattered, we’re just burnt out ashes

And ashes to dust, dust bunnies lie only on forgotten stations

And such stations obtain webs with spiders, a button and a red crayon

And as I’m watching you, you are still weeping

Tears that get my own already red-rimmed eyes seeping

And I long to protect you, to stay by your side

But I’m prevented from doing so by my Goddamn pride

I long to love you like so often I’ve dreamed

Longed to see your smile instead of the omnipresent frown- or so it seemed

A war had begun when you ran from me crying

I may have looked strong, but inside I was dying

15.12.2010

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ACH heelpp meeh :'|