YESTERDAY'S MEMORIES

CHAPTER FOUR

M I L E S P O V

We're at the airport waiting for Kia to arrive in a coffin to return home with her. Tried to explain to Kyra her mother is gone. She looked at me blankly. Blake keeps looking for her he doesn't even want to know me. 

We are standing to wait for Kia's coffin. The car arrives. Soon as my eyes see the coffin I break down. Just couldn't handle it. 

My wife's gone. Felt guilty for the last two years. The guys and the girls get on the plane with my children while I make sure Kia is on safe. They load her on the plane. Step onto the plane, sit place the belt on before the plane takes flight. 

The plane takes flight all I could think about is my wife. Glanced at my children, realise how lucky I am to see Kia in both of them. I couldn't help but let my tears fall. "Daddy. Will mummy be with us at her funeral?" Kyra asked. Looking at her with a sad smile on my lips.

"She will. She will be in here." Touch her little heart, hug her. "Mummy will always be with us," I tell her. Kiss the top of her head. Feeling it more for Drake, he's only three still young. He loves his mummy and can't be without her. 

Just couldn't stop my tears from flowing. We arrive back home a car is waiting for Kia a limo for us. 

Place the children in the limo. I'm waiting for my wife's coffin. Walked with her to the hearse, kissed the top of the coffin. "I love you, Kia." Whispered walk back to the car. The guys get in the limo. Slide in the back with my children. We follow the hearse for a couple of miles before making our way back to the condo. 

Get Drake out of the limo he's upset asking for mummy. "Drake. Come on, mate." Hug him tight, but he pushes me away.

"I want mummy." He cries. Unlock the door to the condo Kyra walks over to her toys. I step through the door kicking it closed sit on the sofa trying to comfort Drake. He's getting worse and begins to scream, sobbing. 

Trying so hard to comfort him, but he kept asking for mummy. Kyra sits on the sofa with him. He puts his arms out for his sister to have a cuddle. Let him cuddle his sister he stops crying.

"Kyra, you have something special," I said looking at her. "No daddy. Mummy would always sit us on the sofa if one of us cried. We all hugged each other. Mummy said if any time we are scared or crying we had to sit on the sofa to have a love hug." Kyra is hugging her brother.

"Love hug," Drake said. Rub my face step into the kitchen. Tears fall and It's for Kyra remembering what her mother had told her. A while later settled the children into bed. Drake is still calling out for his mother; he settled finally fell asleep.

Stepped into the shower bowed my head letting the warm water flow over my aching body. Sobbing my heart out for Kia. Angry she left me, missing her more than I would ever think I would. 

Grab a towel dried gazed in the mirror to see my bloodshot eyes. Have to arrange a funeral and I'm not looking forward to doing this. 

Slide into bed looking at the ceiling thinking of Kia the entire time. Eaten up with guilt, I left her when she needed me the most, didn't sleep well at all.

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FUNERAL

It's the day of the funeral. I'm sitting with my children in the church. It's been two weeks since Kia passed. Felt an emptiness inside my heart. The vicar is talking about Kia. Sit with my children in each arm hugging them tight my family is here too. 

Chose two songs to play after the eulogy? Meet me halfway, our wedding song, and Somewhere over the rainbow, which is a song Kia chose. 

Kia had thought about her own funeral and contacted a lawyer to have her wishes met. When the service finished, we followed the coffin to the graveside. My father walks with me. Tyrone, Ross and Jax followed with their partners.