broken shells (fixing some serious grammar errors)

Ch.2 donnie pov

"April," I say softly "April, April!" I yell she jumps

" Oh sorry Donnie I was ...." she started but I cut her off

" Thinking about that night and about my brothers." I can barley spit the words out of my mouth

" Donnie your eyes they are red why?" she asks me and I wonder if I should lie

" I was ... well .... You know." I said with a sad tone

" You were think about them agin weren't you." she said coming and hugging me for comfort

" I just don't get everything that's happened and I don't even know if I made a cure they would want to go back. Not to mention the whole Raph situation and Casey is gone." I said loading it and bawling

" I know it's hard for you, you stayed when no one else would. This home is like a grave yard and the ghosts of the past haunting you every which way. worst of all master splinters voice still echoes down the hall. I understand it's not your fault they are just ....." she said but I stopped her

" Shhh! don't try to make me better it's no use just shut up and don't speak," I said leaving her warm embrace

" I know you mean well but it doesn't help knowing that my brothers are gone okay. Just let me go back to my lab and rest in peace." I said turning away from her

" Donnie don't do this please!" she yelled after me but it was no use my broken heart drowned her out.

As I closed the door I couldn't help but look at my lab. memories of when ice cream kitty was made here, the time when my brothers went wasp crazy, or squrlinods come flooding back like a weight that crushed my chest. I hate this I want them back. I miss Mikey messing up my lab, I miss raph yelling because he was mad, I miss Leo giving orders but most of all I miss splinter and the way me not to think while fighting just to go for it and take the chance. I miss it all I wonder if they do, I wonder if raph does. After all he is fully purple dragoned out tattoo and all. What made him do it? was it some thing I said? I still remember that last conversation I had, the last words I said to him cut him to the core I know it I said " just because you lost spike, master splinter, and your own ability to be a turtle doesn't mean you get complain, you didn't loss everything important to you because you never cared you've always been a giant hot head that's all you'll ever be." I don't know I just got flustered and words flew out like a volcano. maybe I made him go evil, maybe I didn't and he's just being that way because it's who he is. all I know is this I'm regretting everything I said and wish I could take it back.