distance

17 chapter back to portugal

i arrived portugal and my mom was there waiting for me, i hugged her tight obviusly.

we went by car back to my place, i was depressing obviusly its post USA depression, i arrived home and greeted all my family and after hugging everyone i went to my room i called Cameron on facetime like i promissed.

"hey sis" he said smiling

"hey bro how you guys doin'?" i asked smilig

"im good were all good i mean except shawn, he kinda of started crying when you left" omg he cried? poor shawn i love him so much

"why?" i asked very worried

"well he felt sad because he wouldnt see you in two months" 

"aww he's so sweet"

"he really likes you emma, call him"

"i will"

"you should call him like right now"

"ok bye big bro"

"bye little sis"

i hung up the facetime and called shawn on skype after about 3 rings he picked up, his face popped up on the screen, his eyes were red.

"hey babe" i said

"hey emma" he said

"have you been crying?" i asked worried

"yeah i have something to tell you" he said

"you can tell me anything babe you know it" i said

"camila kissed me, but its not what it looks like, she kissed me and i pushed her right away, i told her about how much i loved you and that i didnt liked her in that way and she said she was really sorry and she wouldnt tell anyone about us" he said

 "she kissed you?" i asked confused, i'm not quite sure how i'm suposed to feel about it, i mean yeah she kissed him, but he told me about it and said he pushed her away.

"yes, im sorry i didnt tell you right away" he said looking down

"when did she kissed you?" i asked

"when we talked about her" he said

"well, did you like it?" i asked praying for his answer to be no

"well i did, but it was nothing like you, with her it was just a kiss, with you its a lot more" he explain, im actually a little hurt that took him so long to tell me and that he actually liked the kiss

"well maybe i dont know, maybe we should take a break" i said unsure of what i was doing, i cant believe im doing this but, people dont know i exist so in their minds, shawn is single, so they can do whatever they want without having to worry about someone getting hurt

"what?! no absolutly not emma, dont even joke about that, just the idea of that kills me" he said letting a tear down his face

"shawn,, do you think that camila will be the only one trying to kiss you? there's going to be a lot of girls in your way, and they think you're single so do you think they will really mind abou kissing you? i mean the distance thing is so hard for me but keeping it a secret its making it even harder" i explained

"do you think its easy for me? lie to my friends? my fans? only the magcon guys and camila know that we're dating, dont you think that i wanna tell everyone that i have the best girlfriend in the world? of course i do" shawn said

"well then why wont you tell them?" i said, wuickly regreting that i said it " im sorry i didnt mean to say that you dont have to tell anyone"

"no, you know what fuck it, lets tell everyone, im tired of making you a secret, lets tell the world, lets post those pictures that you made me take lets just tell" shawn said

"what shawn no you dont want that" i said

"of course i do, i love you and i want the world to know about it" he said, and when he said it i got a notification on twitter saying

"hey guys i hope you dont get mad but i've been dating this awesome girl @emmaasantoos for about one month now and i love her <3"

omg i cant believe he did that, and with that hundreds of followers and tweets came, i was in schock, a lot of girls were sending hate but a lot of girls were sending love too, some thought that was a lie.

"shawn wtf?" i said

"no babe dont worry i was tured of hidding it too, i mean this just took a huge weight of my shoulder trust me"