I'm sorry I cheated before I met you,
let another man touch me
in all the places I should've saved up for you,I'm sorry I lived a little of my life,
and didn't stand still for every second
to make room for you in every part of it.I'm sorry I developed likes and dislikes
for food, and poetry, and clothes, and movies,
before I knew what you would've liked in meI'm sorry I didn't wait for you like I should have,
like everyone told me to because
doesn't life only truly start after I meet you?I thought I'd tell you all of this in tears,
hoping that you'd forgive me for all of this,
committing crimes I didn't know the penalty of.I promise I lived as little as I could,
I felt guilty after everything I did,
everything I didn't know you'd approve of.I didn't expect you to laugh at me.
I didn't expect you to trivialise this,
and wave it away like it was nothing.I should've been thankful, happy, relieved,
You forgave me for all my sins after all
all the things that everyone told me were unforgivable.I didn't expect you to tell me you've done worse,
that I never crossed your mind
until you met me in person today for the first time.I didn't expect this anger inside me,
how dare you take away my life before you,
and act like it was no big dealI didn't expect this sadness at myself,
I have no one else to blame for my decisions,
For living my life by rules made by somebody I don't even know.
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Poems
PoetrySonnets, couplets, free style. Just my outlet in all forms of poetic expression.