Something About His Heart//A Park Jimin ff// Completed

Chapter 16 (One chance)

Jimin. Jimin. Jimin.
Why are you invading my mind?
I want to hate you.
I hate you.
But I miss you.

I hate myself for missing you.

But when I think about it, it wasn't your fault.
You didn't kill oppa.
You are innocent....... I hope so.

But the fact that he died because of you, kills me from inside.

You are the one. If it weren't for you, my oppa would still be with me, and I would have been complete.

But I feel complete when I'm with you.

Why?
Am I catching feelings for you?
I shouldn't.
I love Senhyuk oppa.
Then why?
Why do I feel things for you that I didn't even feel for Senhyuk oppa?
What are you doing to me Jimin?

Why I didn't realize my feelings for you when we are alright.

It was for the best though.
I shouldn't have caught any feelings anyway.

I get off from my bed waiting for my alarm to go off so that I can start my morning routine. I didn't sleep last night.
Million thoughts invading my mind didn't let me sleep.

I needed answers but I didn't want them.
Ironic right?
I guess that what life is. Ironic.

The boy who I started having feelings for after so many years is responsible for the death of my first love.

Half-heartedly I reached the bus stop.

My eyes we're dry now. Only guilt and anger remained.

Unlike the boy standing far enough from me.

He said he liked me too.
Is that the reason his eyes are moist?

He kept looking at me.

He looked hurt.

And it broke me.

I wanted to ease his pain but I couldn't.

Because he was my pain.

The reason for my depression. The reason for my madness.

But I still wanted to hug him tight.

I wanted to trust him.

I'll just listen to 'Hold me tight'.

I took my phone and earplugs out of my bag and played the song, ignoring the boy, waiting for the bus.

The bus arrived soon and we both got in.
There were only two seats empty and unfortunately, they were together.

"Um N-noona, you can sit near t-the window." I quickly gave a nod and scooted near the window and felt him sit besides me too.

It was awkward but sitting next to him felt safe. It felt good in a way.

I felt his eyes on me and turned my head and the scene I saw was heartbreaking.

"J-jimin wh-"

"I'm s-sorry noona. I'm really sorry. I d-didn't knew what he meant to you. I cannot see you l-like this. I broke you. P-please forgive me. Please."

He broke down in front of me and I couldn't do anything. I couldn't bring myself to console him nor ask him to stop. His face was red and tears rolled off his eyes as if they were waterfall.

"Did you two fight?"

We both turned our heads to see the source of the voice.

"Take him back. He is really sorry." An old grandma said smiling showing her missing tooth.

"His face is too handsome to be destroyed like that." The lady next to the grandma spoke.

"Now hug him for me." Grandma spoke again.

I didn't move and same goes for Jimin.
"Don't make me sad. You will ruin my day." I hesitated but gave up.

I side hugged Jimin while he was still looking at grandma and felt his body stiffened.

He turned to look at me and gave a faint smile which I replied with a forced one.

I moved closer to him and placed my head on his shoulders but I couldn't move my hands this time. After few seconds I felt his arms around me.

He squeezed me tight and started crying harder.

I patted his back and a tear escaped my eyes.

"Look at them. They are so adorable."

"Don't fight again."

We let go of each other and quickly looked outside the window praying to reach the stop faster.

Jimin was quiet now but he sniffled frequently.

He wiped his face from his long big men sleeves and he looked adorable.

I wanted to squeeze his cheeks but at the same time I wanted to get away from him.

Soon we reached the bus stop and got off quickly.

I started walking to Jimin and Jimin followed.

No one said a word.

The moment was perfect but it lacked understanding.

I turned a little to look at him but he was no where to be seen.

Curiously, I turned again and bumped into someone.
That someone wrapped his hands around my waist and pulled me closer.

"I'm really sorry Noona. Please forgive me. I will never hurt you."

"Let me go Jimin. I don't want to do this."

"I won't let you go. I'll never let you go. I know that I hurt you but i had no intentions to do so. Give me one chance. One chance to earn your forgiveness. Please noona. I will do anything to prove how sorry I am and how much you mean to me."

"Jimin let go of me. I don't want to be late for school."

"Not until you give me a chance."

"Did you forget about the threat? What I said to you yesterday?"

"I didn't forget it. I'll prefer to be blind again than see you hurt."

"You're pathetic Jimin."

"Please"

"Alright fine. One chance."

"One chance" he finally let go of me and pecked my cheeks and held my hands together and started speed walking to school.

"Come on noona! We will be late."

He dragged me along and me being the useless potato just rolled with it.

A part of my heart was happy but also scared.

I really don't want to go through everything again.

But I wanted this for Jimin.

After all it isn't his fault that he was blind.
It isn't his fault that his mother did that.
He has no one right now.
His mother is dead and his father is in jail.

Life is a joke for all of us at some point.

Hey!

Excited?

Tomorrow's the day.

We'll on a full army mode tomorrow.

Lets see how many of us survive.

Jungkook looked so hot in the teaser.

Sorry for the late update. This chapter is smaller than Jimin's hands.

I love you all. And I love this book. It is my first after all.

Forever Army!

Be happy and be safe