My Boss' Fling and First Love (On Edit)

Chapter 28 - Must Not

Jai's POV

MY PHONE FELL together with a tear from my eyes. Negative ideas popped up inside my mind. Is that voice belongs to Kerra? Magkasama ba sila ni Drake? Are they on a bar that's why I'm hearing a noisy background over the line? How's Drake then? Is he drunk?

What the f.ck? Ganon na ba talaga kagalit sa 'kin si Drake para gawin niya ang bagay na 'yon? Agad kong pinunasan ang luha ko at pinilit na palitan ang sakit at lungkot na bumabalot sa 'kin bilang galit. I have the right to feel this, right? Siguro naman ngayon, pwedeng maging tama na ang timing ng pagkagalit ko.

I tried building walls around my heart, hoping that it won't be easily broken by Drake when I see him again. Mukhang wala din naman siyang balak na umuwi ngayon. He might sleep on a hotel with Kerra.

Inis kong pinunasan ang luhang tumulo na naman sa mga mata ko. Kailan ba 'ko tatantanan ng mga luhang 'to?!

Tumagilid ako ng higa pero tumalikod din ako. Doon yung pwesto ni Drake and I don't want to think of him! D.mn it, kahit ngayon lang.

Tumayo ako at nagdesisyong sa kwarto ko na lang dati uli ako matutulog. I closed the door and let myself breathe. So this will be an another night without Drake at my side. I wonder if I will be able to have a long sleep, well I must. My baby's health might be on a bad condition if I'll be this stressed and tired.

Pagkahiga ko sa dating kama ko ay sinubukan kong pumikit at pilitin ang sarili kong antukin. Kailangan ko pa nga atang umiyak para matulungan ako ng mga luha na 'to para makatulog, but the negative slash hurting ideas continued popping inside my head.

How I wish Martin and Kerra are on a relationship with each other, pero mukhang imposible 'yon lalo na kung si Kerra ang sumagot ng phone ni Drake. How could that happened? May kinalaman pa ba sa negosyo ang dahilan kung bakit napunta kay Kerra ang phone ni Drake?

So who the hell is Kerra? Is she the new fling? What the f.ck, I'm Drake's first love and Kerra's his fling?

Wala sa sarili akong natawa habang tumulo na naman ang mga pesteng luha. How could we trust each other if these things keep happening?

I made a new rule for myself before finally letting the tiredness eat me whole. I must be at least brave and more strong starting now. Kung pareho kaming galit sa isa't isa, hindi ako mahihirapang magpanggap na matapang sa harapan niya.

I DIDN'T took a bath or even change my clothes before stepping downstairs. Nasa kwarto namin ni Drake ang lahat ng gamit ko. Isa pa, baka nand'on na din siya. I want to laugh. Nandito na siya? It's seems like I'm fooling myself with that d.mn idea.

Hindi ko pinansin ang bawat maids na madaanan ko. Ni hindi ko sila binabati o nginitian pabalik. It's good that they were not asking, I'm not in the mood to speak.

Naghilamos ako sa lababo at kumuha ng gatas sa ref. Napasimangot pa 'ko nang malaman na wala ng laman na Green Apples ang bowl na nasa gitna ng lamesa. So, this will be a boring breakfast.

I sighed and sit at a stool. Mabagal kong inikot-ikot 'yon. Sa wakas napangiti na din ako nang maisip na parang dinuduyan ko na si baby sa ginagawa ko. I really can't wait to finally sway him or her carefully with my arms.

I let my stubborn tear escape my eyes as I caresses my womb. Bakit pakiramdam ko, kaming dalawa na lang uli ni baby? Feeling ko, malayo na naman ako kay Drake.

I sighed once again and wipe the tears away. Tumayo ako at nagbalak na kumuha uli ng gatas. I'm drinking my milk when I suddenly heard Butler Kelvin's voice.

"Magandang umaga, Binibining Ross."

Tinignan ko lang siya na parang hindi ata alam kung lalapit ba sa 'kin o hindi. He's maybe afraid that I'll pinch his cheek where his dimple was located. Nang maubos ko ang gatas ay saka ako naglakad palapit sa kanya. I'm wearing a poker face making him wear a questioning facial expression.

Hindi ko pinahalata na halos gusto ko nang magsitalon nang makita ko ang basket na hawak niyang may mga Green Apples.

A part of me became sad from expecting a bouquet of flowers coming from Drake, but I chose to at least be happy because of these Green Apples that my tongue was craving for. Nakakatuwa ding isipin na may bumabati sa'kin ng good morning bukod kay Drake.

Walang emosyon akong kumuha ng mansanas mula sa basket at agad na kumagat. I felt lazy for cutting the Green Apple's skin away and for washing this precious fruit before taking a bite.

Balak ko na sanang maglakad papuntang garden dahil sa gusto ko na ding makalanghap uli ng sariwang hangin, pero nagsalita si Butler Kelvin dahilan para huminto ako.

"Binibining Ross, hindi mo kukurutin o susundutin nang paulit-ulit ang dimple ko?"

Hinarap ko siya at kumagat muna uli sa mansanas bago mabagal na umiling. I want to laugh because of his word dimple that came out from his mouth very cute, but I stopped myself.

Napansin kong huminga siya nang malalim bago ngumiti sa 'kin. His smile is now real, it looks very light and happy. Mukhang natakot na talaga si Butler Kelvin sa parati kong pagkurot ng pisngi niya, kaya siguro sobrang saya niya ngayong hindi ko gagawin 'yon.

I pouted. Pwede naman niya akong pahintuin kung gusto niya, pero mukhang masyado talaga siyang mabait para hindi gawin 'yon. Guilt ate me instantly, I'm really really bad.

"Sorry," I whispered before quickly turning my back at him. Wala akong ganang sagutin kung magtatanong man siya kung para saan 'yon.

"Binibining Ross, batid kong may bagay kayong hindi pinagkaunawaan ni Ginoong Drake. At kahit na sa tingin ko ay wala ako sa tamang lugar upang manghimasok, nais ko lamang na ipaalam sayo na habang may buhay, may pag-asa."

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from laughing. Kumagat din uli ako sa apple pero halos matawa na ako sa sinabing quote ni Butler Kelvin. Hell, he seemed serious but he ended his sentence with that!

"Biro lang, Binibining Ross. Nais ko sanang mapatawa ka kahit papaano, sapagkat hindi ako sanay na hindi makita ang nakakasilaw na pagkurba ng iyong labi, na tunay namang  bumihag kay Ginoong Drake. Ngunit mukhang hindi ako nagtagumpay, ang korni e."

Bumihag kay Drake? I laughed, letting the happiness to cover me again. Hearing those words coming from Butler Kelvin soothes the pain inside me.

Natawa din si Butler Kelvin pero sabay kaming napahinto nang marinig ang boses na nagpaalala sa 'king dapat nga pala'y galit ako.

"Jai, I'll explain," he said while breathing really fast. His chest was moving up and down. His hair was on a very messy state and his gray eyes looked vulnerable like he don't know what to do and say first.

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin sa takot na mawala ang dapat na galit ko. He badly need to explain, but I'm not yet ready to hear it. I don't want to talk to him, I mustn't.