My Boss' Fling and First Love (On Edit)

Chapter 20 - The Best Thing

Jai's POV

I BLINKED again and again. Is this real? Is he Drake? Am I really I'm facing him right now?

Naramdaman kong namumuo na ang tubig sa gilid ng mga mata ko. Binitawan ko ang walis at nag-iwas ng tingin. I could feel him staring at me but I kept my gaze down the floor.

I don't know what to feel, either what to say and what to do. I really don't know. Ang daming katanungan ang nasa isip ko. Paano siya nakapasok dito? Bakit siya nagluluto? Pumunta ba siya dito para sa 'kin?

Napatingala ako nang maramdaman kong naglakad siya papalapit. Muntikan pa akong mapaatras nang hawakan niya ang likuran ng ulo ko para mahalikan ang noo ko.

I froze. I closed my eyes as the tears fell. I miss this feeling. Every kisses coming from him soothe me always. It feels comfortable, like I'm safe.

Ipinagdikit niya ang noo naming dalawa at hinawakan ang magkabilaan kong pisngi. I sobbed when he wipe my tears using his both thumb. I just can't believe what was really happening right now.

"I'll just assume that you're happy seeing me, making you cry like this," he jokingly said that made me laugh. Hindi ko inaasahang makakatawa ulit ako nang ganito nang siya ang dahilan.

"Shh, stop crying. It's a good morning not a bad nor sad, okay?"

Napatango na lang ako at pinunasan din ang luha ko. My brain isn't functioning, I still have nothing to say. He held my hand which causes my heart to quicken its beat. Hell, bakit ba parang umaakto siya tulad ng dati? What he was doing makes me emotional even more.

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from uttering a sob. Umupo siya sa upuang katabi ko matapos kong umupo sa upuang hinila niya para sa 'kin. He smiled at me so I gave him a small smile in return. I could feel that he's trying to lift up the atmosphere between us.

Pinunasan ko ang luha ko at uminom na lang ng tubig. He was putting a food on my plate. This seems like we can bring back everything that had happened in his mansion, while making a new memory, like this.

F.dge, ano na naman bang naiisip ko? I was assuming again for what the f.cking sake. How I wish my strength could come back by just cursing like that.

"Let's eat," Drake said making my tummy boils. I stroked my tummy slowly, my baby is hungry.

"You badly need to eat. Looks like, our baby is hungry, sweetheart."

Every air inside me disappeared. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko at napatingin sa kanya. What does he said? H-how did he know?

"Okay, you look surprised. I'll tell how I'd knew it after we're done eating."

Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at pinilit na kontrolin ang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko. I suddenly became worried and nervous while we're eating.

Anong gagawin niya sa baby? Kaya ba siya nandito para alagaan ang anak niya sa loob ko at pagkatapos, iiwanan niya ako pagkapanganak ko? Is that what he was planning to do?

I breathe heavily, panic was slowly eating me and this is not good. Binitawan ko ang kutsara at hindi napigilang mapaiyak dahil sa halo-halong negatibong emosyon na unti-unting bumabalot sa'kin.

Tumayo ako. Work. I forgot to find a work. That's the only thing remained to go out in here. Baka pagbalik ko wala na din siya.

I didn't brought my stare back at him. Nagmadali akong naglakad lalo na noong narinig kong tumayo na din siya.

I was almost running but he snatched my hand. I cried even more. D.mn this, I need to go out in here! I'm being more paranoid every second and I can't fre.king take this feeling for long!

"Why are you crying? Did I said something wrong? Please, tell me. Just don't go like you are leaving me again."

I stare at him. Ano bang sinasabi niya? Why he's always acting like that? Why he was pretending like he's concern and affected whenever I'm leaving him? Gulong-gulo na ako. I don't know what to do and think first. I just want to disappear.

Drake is my happiness and my strength, pero siya na naman ang nagiging dahilan ng paghina ko ngayon.

Saglit na nalipat ang atensyon ko sa kamay ko na binitawan niya. He started pacing back and fourth while stroking his hair. He looks vulnerable yet confuse just like me. Mukhang katulad ko ay hindi niya na din alam ang gagawin.

Why are we like this? Ni hindi pa nga kami nag-uusap, bakit mukhang hindi na kami nagkakaintindihan?

"Listen, Jai. I'll explain. I'll explain all of the things you must at least know before leaving me. Just please, don't go," he begged. His eyes bacame red as the water at the corner of his eyes formed.

I nodded hoping to at least see brightness in his eyes, and it did. I could see his eyes brightened even a little, but sadness is still in there. Mas nahihirapan akong makita siyang ganyan. Mas nasasaktan akong makita siyang nahihirapan kaysa sa mga bagay na naiisip kong pwedeng niyang maging dahilan kaya siya nandito. I want to laugh, I guess love really sucks, d.mn it.

"Jai, you're my first love. Maybe you did think that you and my first love were the same but you ignored it. Butler Kelvin told me that he already told you why you are my first love, doesn't he? Sinabi niya sa 'kin na hindi niya sinabi lahat ng totoo. And what was not true among all he had told you is that he haven't found my first love. Nahanap ka niya, Jai. Butler Kelvin wasn't just a butler, he can be a private investigator or a defective too."

Nasapo ko ang bibig ko at napaupo. Butler Kelvin is really amazing then, but I can't feel surprise by it right now. My knees were trembling, even my mouth.

Drake is right. I have the feeling that I am the woman whom Butler Kelvin was referring to, but it's just too imposible to believe. Ako ba talaga 'yon? Hindi ba talaga coincidence ang lahat?

Sa dami ng naipagtanggol kong nabubully noon, hindi ko na matandaan ang halos lahat ng itsura nila. Is it really true that Drake is one of those I'd protected? Kaya ba napakafamiliar ng mga mata niya sa'kin dahil posibleng noon pa ay natitigan ko na ang mga 'yon?

"Jai, I know it is hard to believe but I just can't tell these words to you when you're in my mansion. Oo, nagawa kong mabago ang panlabas kong anyo, pero sa loob ko? Nand'on pa rin ang panghihina ko lalo na pagdating sayo.

"I know everything about you. Lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay mo, inaalam ko. That's why I know you're pregnant, that your apartment is here. Maybe, I can be really strange, but that's the only way I know to be at least close to you even you're really far away from me. I can't force you to come back but I'm waiting for you. I just miss you so bad and I can't stop myself anymore to come and see you."

I don't know. I don't know what I must f.cking feel! I should be happy right? Pero hindi ko magawa dahil sa pagkagulat ko. This is so d.mn unbelievable. Pati ata luha ko nagulat kaya wala nang tumutulo ngayon. I want to laugh. I feel insane because of Drake's fre.king confession.

"Remember our game Jai? Yung hindi ko nasagot yung tanong mo? It's because I think that that's not the right time to say these. Pero ngayon, alam kong kailangan mo nang malaman. I've been in a relationship once, and that's Amixel. I have flings, but I don't care about 'em.

Maybe, I like Amixel, but that's nothing compare to my love for you. Alam ko na 'yon simula nang ipinagtanggol mo 'ko mas lumalim lang sa bawat araw na nagdadaan. Just like you, I can't also believe every things that had happened since I met you," he said and ended his sentences with a warm smile.

That smile of his is all that I need. I let out a smile too. Happiness take over me, the heavy feeling was slowly getting out, I could feel it and it comforts me. Hindi ko na maramdaman ang bigat na nasa loob ko simula nang iwan ko si Drake.

I looked at him. He was teary eyed too. Nakakagulat na makita siyang umiiyak pero mas nakakagulat talaga ang lahat ng sinabi niya. He took a big steps toward me to brought me into a hug. I hugged him tight as the tears in my eyes continue to fell. Hindi na dahil sa lungkot, kundi dahil na sa saya.

I am his first and true love. Never his fling, not his fling. I really have a value for him in the very first place. Fudgee Barr, that will be the best thing I'll ever know.