Dating the bad girl.

Chapter 27 (Part 2) [Speak now]

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Chapter 27

I let custard woof in my arms, gasps echoed from different points in the church.

Whispers began soon after.

I got my wish. I got the chance to look into Nolan's eyes, fucks sake. The feeling of one thousand spikes poked into my heart, I whimpered softly. Those eyes that I loved so much, the eyes that I spent nights drawing, memorising suddenly didn’t seem so beautiful. Those light brown eyes with beautiful specks of gold made my heart twist I felt something grow in my throat.

I thought it would be happiness that I was saving him, however it was anger that I saw. The anger that made me want to go back into time and not enter the church.

“I do.” I said looking Nolan directly into the eyes, his eyes gentled slowly “Pudding..” I mumbled, a slow smile tipped his lips. His mother stood up shouting something, I ignored her “I love you so fucking much.” I said loudly “Just...I-....we-” I was lost for words, I was so in love with him “Just...just come with me. We can take care of the kid...I promise I will help you....we can work through this together...” I walked out of the pew and towards the alter I stood at the end “Pudding...come with me...” I said.

This was it.

Him deciding it all came down to this one tiny moment, who would he pick? Me or her.

Would he finally grow the balls to stand up to his parents. I wanted to freeze this moment, this tiny moment of hope. The infinitesimal moment of hope I felt I never wanted to let go. I felt as if Nolan would pick me finally, I would be the first one in his life finally. I would be good enough.

He dropped his gaze. As if he didn’t know me.

I whimpered pulling Custard closer to my chest, Custard growled as if fighting Nolan.

I would never be his. No matter what I go through I would never be over him.

“Please.” I whispered.

Nolan shoved his hand into his pocket.

My heart plunged somewhere down near my feet and ice filled my body, I shivered at the feeling of pain I felt. I could not deal with this, it hurt too much. Why did it hurt so much if I expected it too happen. Somewhere inside my heart I knew Nolan was going to pick someone else over me but it still hurt like a bitch.

I groaned “Fuck you.” I snapped to Nolan, still holding the tiny piece of dignity I thought I had.

I spun around and walked out the door, ignoring the deep grunt of pain in my chest.

I screamed out in annoyance when I got to the end of the road, I put custard on the floor dropping his leash. He sat on his hind legs watching me. I paced up and down the end of the street, I clenched my fist aiming it at the wall.

“No.” I mumbled.

Don't punch it.

I flicked the rubber band on my wrist, mumbling to myself. I kicked the wall in-front of me the pain in my foot not working to distract me.

I was never going to be good enough, never going to be enough for him he would always find someone better.

“Goddamit.” I muttered dropping down onto the edge of the pavement.

Custard hesitantly began crawling towards me as if he didn’t know if he was doing the right thing. I sighed holding my hands out for his tiny body, he leaped into my palms I pulled him to my chest loving him aobve my heart.