[***[EDITING]***] Dancing Styles (Harry Styles Fanfic) (Watty Awards 2012)

Chapter 38

~*Lucy's POV*~

When we pulled up to the apartment, Harry's car and Carly's car were parked out front.

> I thought numbly.

This was not going to end well...

Louis looked over at me nervously.

"Do you want me to come with you..?" he asked.

I shook my head. Honestly, that would only make things worse at this point

I hesitantly made my way up the steps, just like that day when Simon had told me I had to marry Harry. Gently, I pushed the door open, to see Carly sitting on the couch with Harry, her practically on top of him, running her fingers through his curls, talking softly to him.

Jealousy flared up inside of me, but there was honestly nothing that I could do about it. I had brought this on myself. I kind of deserved it. No, not kind of. I REALLY deserved this. I had hurt Harry in a way that he didn't deserve to be hurt.

Carly smirked at me when she saw me.

"You really shouldn't be here right now. Haven't you done enough?" she sneered, still running her hands in Harry's hair, her lips WAYYYY to close to his face. Or anywhere NEAR him for my liking.

"I'm leaving in a minute. I just had to grab some clothes." I muttered, slinking off to mine and Harry's room.

"Wait, Lucy's here?" I heard Harry's voice crack from the couch, and I felt more tears well up in my eyes.

I had never heard him sound like that, and it honestly..killed me a little inside.

I grabbed my Langdale backpack from Jack Wills, and just started to throw random clothes into it from my dresser, not looking at what I was packing, just, throwing stuff to get out of there as fast as I could.

When that was full, I grabbed another bag, and filled that one as well.

Once I had enough stuff, I went down the hall to Bella's room, where she was sitting up playing with the toys on her bed.

"Mummy!" she exclaimed, hugging me tightly.

I hugged her back, struggling to hold back tears.

"Where are you going?" she asked me.

I let a couple tears fall, swiping them away quickly before looking at her, forcing a smile on my face.

"I'm going on a little vacation. And you get to stay here with daddy, and have lots and lots of fun, alright? I love you princess." I told her, kissing her forehead.

She gave me another big hug.

"Have fun mummy!" she told me before going back to her toys.

I ran out of the room, if I stayed any longer I would break down. But I ran into a hard chest.

Gulping, I looked up and met the eyes of the boy I really couldn't look at right now.

"I'll just be going now." I told Harry quietly before trying to slip past him, but he grabbed my arm tightly.

"Lucy." he said in a pained voice, but I refused to look at him.

I couldn't. I would lose it. Break.

"Goddamnit look at me!" he exclaimed, shaking me .

I started crying again, but looked up at him.

He was crying too. And that made me cry harder.

"I'm so sorry Harry." I sobbed, still trying to get out of his grip.

"Why?! Whywhywhywhywhy?! Why would you do this to me?" he asked, tears pouring down his face as heavily as they were mine.

"Because..I just..Harry I love Louis. When you left, it hurt, and he was there, and it just happened, and I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm so sorry.."

He looked at me sadly.

"You're leaving then?" he asked, clearing his voice.

I nodded.

"I just need a couple days to think." I said weakly.

"But you're coming back?" he asked.

"If you want me to." I said after a moment.

He nodded and then pulled me into him, kissing my forehead.

"Go do what you need to do then." he said then before walking into Bella's room.

I hurried out of the house, barreling into Louis' car before I broke down crying again.

I hurt him, badly, and he still wanted me to come back...oh my god I didnt deserve him. He should hate me. Not want to be anywhere near me. But he didn't act like that.

"Are you okay?" Louis asked as he pulled away.

"No." I choked out.

I...I felt so torn. I loved Louis. So much. But then why was driving away from Harry making me feel so broken? Oh yeah. Because I was still in love with Harry from 4 years ago.

(A/N) just a short little thing for you guys since you voted and stuff