take care

thirty seven

Hello,

It's been a very lazy week. All I've done this week is read Harry Potter, drink Arizona, watch Gossip Girl, and cut. Eleanor and Louis have also been very lovey dovey lately. I don't know, maybe something happened on Christmas where their PDA went haywire but it seems like all they do is do gross couple things. Were me and Harry like that? God, we must've been annoying.

I've yet to tell the two about my self harm experiments. I feel like it would just break their hearts if I told them. Truly it has been helping me quite a bit, but the lovebirds just wouldn't understand. There's no need to overwhelm them with this information anyways.

New Years Eve is tomorrow and I've been thinking about my New Year's Resolutions a lot. At first I said, "stay away from love" then "stop being fucking useless" but I felt like my therapist would have a problem with those two so I decided against them. Who knows, maybe I'll decide tomorrow.

I apologize for this being such a short letter. I haven't done much this week and I figured I should do something at least somewhat productive. Once the new year starts I'll start writing you more. Actually, I've been thinking about writing a book. I know that's a lot considering that the only thing I've ever written outside of school are these letters, but I love writing so much. Like cutting, writing is a coping skill. Unlike cutting, this helps me a lot more. I can let out my feelings and emotions and just say whatever the fuck I want. For once in my life I can be someone other than myself, and I love it.

Take Care,

Niall xx

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A/N Hello everybody, I am back :) I'm sorry about the long hiatus and stuff, but hopefully that should be the last one I ever have with this book. Sorry that this chapter isn't too exciting, but the next one is! Oh well um I don't really know what to put in the Author's Note, it's been so long since I've written one. Well I'm going back to my old update schedule of Monday and Friday. It's summer, you guys deserve two updates!

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