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thirty two

Why do these things always happen to me,

So today (three days since I've moved in with Elounor and four days till Christmas) Eleanor and I went over to my flat to get some of my stuff. We weren't going to get everything in case I decided I wanted to move back in, but I needed enough stuff to make it through the next couple weeks. It was a bit difficult to see all of Harry's stuff just sitting around everywhere, but I managed to not have a panic attack whilst there. I was fine the entire day until around six o'clock.

Eleanor and Louis were debating over what we should all have for dinner. Since I was a neutral party, I just sat down on the couch reading (finally reading the Harry Potter series. Can't believe it's taken me so long to get to this one). At six o'clock a timer went off and I groaned. My medicine that I have to take makes me take it once every twelve hours for the rest of the week. It's terrible, but I suppose I forced this upon myself since I was the one who decided to overdose on pills.

Louis hopped off the couch and went into the kitchen to get a glass of water while El tried to convince me that it was for my own good. Pretty much immediately after there was a knock at the door. Eleanor went to get it and froze once she saw who was behind the door. I looked up from The Sorcerers Stone to see the last person I would expect: Gemma Styles

The first thing I noticed was her hair. It was different from the last time I had seen it. Harry and I had visited her to tell her the news of our relationship and she was so happy for us. She claimed that she had known that Harry was gay all along and was just waiting for him to come out of the closet. At the time, Gemma had had blonde hair, something I thought would never suit her and was happily proven wrong when I saw it. Now it was dyed pastel, blue on the top and purple on the bottom. I sighed when I saw this. Yes, Gemma looked amazing with this, but it seemed as if another piece of Harry was being ripped away from me.

The next thing I noticed was that Gemma had a gift in her hand. She smiled at me when she noticed that I was sitting right there. I gulped. Had she always looked that much like Harry?

"Gemma? What are you doing here?" Eleanor asked.

She just smiled, still standing in the doorway. "I came to see Niall. I'm not going to see him next week so I got his Christmas present! Don't worry, I have yours too, but that's in the mail. So do you mind if I talk to Niall?"

Gemma didn't wait for an answer and walked into the living room, sitting down next to me. Louis walked in and nearly dropped the glass when he saw Gemma sitting there.

"Do you mind if I talk to him alone? Thanks." Gemma said. Eleanor and Louis were a bit skeptical about leaving me alone. They trusted Gemma, but I knew why they were acting this way. Gemma was Harry's sister, and he broke my heart.

"Um, hi Gemma."

"Hi Niall."

There was silence, neither of us knowing what to say. Gemma sighed, breaking the silence. "I'm sorry, Niall."

"What?"

"I'm sorry about Harry. I know you don't want to hear about him, but I'm sorry. I'm not here to tell you about how he is or how I think that you shouldn't have broken up. Nope, I totally understand why you did it. He told me everything, and even though he's my brother, I'm on your side for this one. Kendall is just a slut, I understand why you don't trust her."

There was silence as I let everything that Gemma said sink in. "What are you really doing here, Gemma?"

She handed me the present in her hands, along with a card. I just stared at the objects as she weakly laughed. "Open them, sweetie."