Let Me Figure It Out

Let Me Figure It Out [11]

Ja'Dia POV

"You sure he made you feeling like that with just his tongue and hands?" Farrah asked me while i was eating my ice cream
"Yes damn"
"No need for the attitude just making sure you telling the story right"
"Well stop asking me the same thing over and over again... anyways like i was saying i felt bad afterwards because this is the first time I'm being sexual with another beside Michael"
"I mean i understand why you got emotional he was your first and only one top of that he died. But honestly it's been 4 years and if Tyrek was to die god forbid of course I'll be heartbroken but eventually I'll get over it and move on plus i have a child with him" she said making me nod my head agreeing with her
"What y'all talking about" Sarah said walking up to the picnic table with us
"Ja'dia in her feelings as always" Farrah said making me roll my eyes at her
"Aww Boo is it about Zeeky?"
"Kinda sorta just thinking i really like Zeeky but Michael still lingers in my head"
"Just pray about it i know it's weighing heavy on you maybe you should go to his grave and express your feelings get it off your chest you might feel better that's what i do with my dad"
"Your dad died?" Farrah asked shocked
"No my mom did me and my dad go to her grave every now and then to talk to her" she said
"But his body was never buried never seen him laid to rest all i saw was a object burned laying on the table in a dark room"
"Yea he wasn't recognizable" Farrah said
"Oh my I'm sorry babe so he didn't have a service or cremation?"
"No. nothing when i asked the people working at the morgue they cursed my out and told me i didn't have to see what was left of him"
"What the fuck where you went again?" Sarah asked
"I don't know girl it was some ranky dank center they send all the bodies" i said not interested in the conversation anymore.
"Well lets change the subject. How about we all go on a girls trip somewhere before i leave for Jersey" Farrah stated
"Tooo"
"Im broke sorry sis" i said
"Shut Up Tyrek got us and idk like California or Bahamas"
"Bahamas been there but California i been wanting to go there for the longest" Sarah said excited
"I know right when you free you the one with the full schedule" her and Sarah went on talking while i watched JJ play around with a few other kids until i seen him wrestling with another little boy. I get up and jog over to pick up junior
"TJ What is wrong with you huh? You don't put your hands on other people" i fuss dusting him off
"It's Okae there just boys Ja'Dia —"
"Who the hell are you and i know- Zeek" he smiled that bright smile i like so much
"Yes it's me and let them tough it out there boys that's what they supposed to do. This your kid?"
"No he's my nephew. Is he yours?" I asked looking at the dark skin cute lil boy run off with junior
"Nah my cousin he's in town and asked me to take him to the park" he said i mentally thanked the lord. Not saying that his child would be a burden but i don't wanna deal with any baby mommas right now
"Well that's cute your spending time with him"
"Yes but i been with him all weekend lil bad rascal I'm trying to get to spend time with you again" he nudged my shoulder
"I know I'm sorry I've been busy"
"Bullshit i went up to the back the other day and Tasha said you called out the past two days. Why you lying to me ma?" He said looking me in my eye catching me by surprise. He was looking for me, he cares that much or was he just checking on his funds. Thankfully Farrah and Sarah came rushing over shouting TJ name looking for him
"It's Okae he's over there with my lil cousin I'm watching them" Zeek said making them sigh in relief
"Thank god he's busy i just saw him on the swings" Farrah said sitting down catching her breathe
"He don't even like the swings Faye" i added making Zeek chuckle
"You know what i meant why you leave we was discussing plans and dates"
"Oh you plan on leaving me?" Zeek asked raising his eyebrow at me
"They are trying to go to California I'm staying here i don't got California money to blow right now" i said looking away
" i told you Ty got us"
"I'm not relying on y'all to pay my way Faye end of discussion" i added getting pissed she's bringing this up in front of him
"Just give me the amount Farrah and I'll have it to in no time she going" Zeek said sparking a black and mild i turned to look at him but he gave a looking begging me to test him so i didn't respond.
"Damn bitch you got him paying your ways and shit my boo done got her a man!" Sarah yelled
"I don't need him paying my way" i added
"Well i am get over it you going. You need clothes too?"
"No i have-"
"Yes she does cause you not wearing them Tom boy outfits you love to wear" Farrah cut me off telling him. Little do they know they are embarrassing me in front of him
"We can go do that after we leave here or whenever you "not busy"" he said adding the air quotations round not busy
"I can't explain that" i said feeing bad he caught me lying
"No need you didn't want to see me. No pressure just hit me up when you need that money and ready to go shopping" He then got up kissed me on my forehead and walked off calling his nephew to go get in the car.
"What was that about?" Sarah asked looking at me
"He knows I've been ignoring him" i said
"That's why you caught an attitude?" Farrah asked
"No! You bitch always opening your mouth for me i didn't need you telling him my business i can't pay for myself" i yelled at her
"I didn't mean it as if your broke he offered so i -"
"Exactly you said I you should've be in anything that involves me and him Okae?"
"Woah calm down Jay she didn't mean any harm but i see where you coming from" Sarah said trying to calm be down. I looked over to where Zeek walked off to and he was leaning against his car on the phone.
"Aunty your friend said can i go with them to the arcade?" Junior said rushing over to me
"Who sweety" i asked wiping his face
"The man you was hugging earlier duh" he said making Farrah laugh
"Uhmm baby that's up to your mom" i looked over at  and she nodded making me wide eye her
"Yes as long as Ja'Dia goes with y'all" she added
"Yes!" Tj then ran over to Zeek and the lil boy and told them Zeek then looked at me motioning for me to come on.
"Well yall have fun he can stay over if it gets late love you" Faye smirked at me
"Bye girl have fun" Sarah hugged me i walked over to the car where they was at
"Justin this is my aunty Jay" Tj said to the lil boy from earlier
"Hi" he said standing behind Zeek's leg
"Man you ain't shy move" Zeek pulled him from behind him pushing him towards me. I giggled at how cute he was blushing at me
"Hi cutie I'm Ja'Dia you are?" I asked holding my hand out to him
"Justin" he said holding my hand
"Cute name for a cute lil boy" i said
"You heard that Zeek she digging me might just have to take yo girl" he said making me bust out laughing from the look on his face
"Man get to bad ass in the car she don't want you" he said bucking at him making both of them run to get in the car.
"I can hear an accent where he from"
"New York where he needs to be heading back to" He snickered
"Aww you don't have to worry he's not gonna take me from you" i cooed kissing his cheek
"Well why you been ignoring me then" he asked
"It's a lot I'll tell you on day i was just in my feelings"
"You can tell me why we take them out get in" he said opening my door.
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Zeekiah POV

We arrive at the arcade i have the boys their coins and they ran off with me and Ja'Dia close behind. I took this as a opportunity to talk to her
"So you been ignoring me for what again"
"I was in my feelings"
"About..."
"I haven't been with a guy since my ex who died a few years back and being around you a new guy new personality and different everything just made me feel like i was replacing him" she said
"Damn ma im sorry how long homeboy been dead?"
"4 years going on 5"
"Damn But you do realize that a long time right? I mean not telling you how to greave but-"
" i know I've been told and I'm over it it's just this is my first time moving on"
"I understand are you afraid I'll hurt you?" I asked more serious she paused
".....maybe i don't know i guess"
"Well imma tell you right I'm a grown ass man i don't have time for games i see something i like i get it i got you here now don't i" she nodded looking at me
"Exactly i dont have time playing with females emotions because I'll be playing with mines also"
"I'm sorry i really am feeling you it's just I'm hesitant"
"I'll wait but don't have me waiting and you don't plan on making shit happen between us"
"You can stop cursing at me Zeek"
"Sorry just letting you know i was a little frustrated when i haven't heard from you since that day in my office had me thinking i played myself"
"No if i wasn't digging you i would have been stopped talking to you"
"You right. So about this trip to California with yo girls. You not digging it?" I asked
"I mean yes I'll love to go but I'm trying to save you know"
"I told you i got it just let me know. And don't start with your miss independent chant either i got you" i looked over at her and she smiled
"Thank you Zeeky" i huffed
"You ain't gonna let that Shit go are you?"
"Nope" she cheesed at me kissing me on the lips
"Hey Zeek i bet you can't beat me in zombie land" Justin shouted
"Man what! You asking for a ass whooping right now" i said waking over to them making Ja'Dia laugh