Ours- Colby Brock

Chapter 13

13.

I jumped out of my window and I was off.

I need some fresh air.

I got my phone out. 2:21 am.

I ran away. At least for a little bit.

I'm scared of my own home now.

I don't like this feeling.

I don't think anyone will like this feeling.

But I can't even talk to my dad now without him scolding me about something or even worse shouting at me for the tiniest thing ever.

I'm so tired of crying all the time. I don't think I can cry anymore.

But even worse is the fact that my parents fight every single day. Even headphones and music can't help me in that situation.

Nobody knows about this. Except Colby but he only knows about the first time my dad shouted at me.

It's better this way. I don't want anyone to know what's going on.

I haven't left my house in so long that it feels weird to be out right now. Especially this late.

But...I like it. I like being alone.

I did try to hang out with friends.

But it's no fun when you're trying to have fun but you DON'T wanna have fun.

Lately I've been feeling..empty.

I haven't been feeling sad just..empty.

My room doesn't feel the same way.

It used to be so homely and cozy...

Now it's just four walls and a roof.

I want to tell Sam what's going on.

But at the same time I don't want to worry him.

I won't tell him.

It's so easy to fool people. Just smile and say I'm fine and they'll believe you. If only they knew to actually look in my eyes and see that inside I'm empty. Not a smile. Not a tear. Just..hollow. No color. It's just black and white.

I feel forgotten.

I looked around and realized... I have no idea where I am. I was so deep into my thoughts I wasn't even paying attention to where I was going.

I got my phone out.

3:24 am.

Wow.

I should start going back now.

But I have no idea where I am. These building look unfamiliar..

Like my room now..

There is no one around.

Fuck.

I turned around and started walking in the direction I came from but as I was walking I couldn't help but feel like I was just getting more and more lost.

Well..shit.

Should I be worried? Will people even care if I didn't return?

Heck, my whole school and family thinks I murdered my best friend so I think everyone will be happy...that I'm gone.

But I don't want to be forgotten...

I sat down on the sidewalk and hugged my knees. I didn't feel like crying. I just wanted to hide away from the world. I usually do that in my room but lately I don't feel hidden in there.

Then I felt my phone vibrate.

I got my phone out and unlocked it.

Colby: Where are you?!

Why would he ask me that. I'll just say I'm in my room..Yeah..

Me: In my room?

Not even two seconds later he replied.

Colby: No you're not

Me: Umm?

Colby: I'm outside your room and I can see you're not in it.

WHAT

Me: Are you stalking me? It's 3 AM! Why would you come to my house?

Colby: I don't need to explain myself. Where are you?

I couldn't believe him right now. I really want an explanation but I don't think I'll get that.

Me: I don't know...

Colby: What do you mean you don't know?

Me: I just got out and started walking somewhere but I wasn't paying attention to where I was going so I ended up...somewhere.

Colby: Send a picture.

There were no cars around so I just walked in the middle of the road.
I opened my camera and took a picture.

Me: *Image sent*

He didn't reply right away. He started typing something but stopped.

What's taking him so long?

I locked my phone and

I heard running.

Who is running at this time?

My phone vibrated.

I looked at the message.

Colby: You shouldn't be there.

Me: ??

Colby: You'll die.