Sacrifice my love... (bts jungkook ff)

He's so close.....yet so far

Y/N pov
I covered my mouth to refrain myself from making any sounds and i quickly leaned my back on the wall beside his door frame. Why does he have my ring,I would have thought he threw that away especially now that he has a girlfriend. No, Jungkook! Why did you keep it?.. Are you still holding on?...
Please..please...don't be....You're meant to be happy now...with Yein!..

I turned my back about to walk to my room until a voice has stopped me in my tracks...jungkook...SHIT.

"Y/N?.." I turned around to him only seeing half of his facial features that the moon was lighting coming from his bedroom window since it the only light here right now."Uh hey..." I replied back avoiding eye contact.
"I thought you were asleep.." He says holding onto my wrist pulling me closer to him facing his chest, I looked up to him shocked from his sudden actions.
"W-wh"
"I couldn't see you" He says as he looks down at me, our faces was only inches from each other, I could feel his hot breathing.
"Uh...w-wheres the..uhm lights?" I asked trying to look away so he doesn't see my face going red as a tomato. He held up my chin with his finger forcing me to look at him. "We might wake up the others...so their better off.."
I hummed in response unable to find my words anymore. He's so close.

He's so close yet so far....

He has a Girlfriend.

He starts to move his gaze from my eyes to my lips, I bit my bottom lips at the sight of him having the same struggles as I am.
"I-I want to kiss you...c-can I..." He asks as he leans in even more. I put my hands on his chest as he kept moving.
Our foreheads are touching but he stops there and shuts his eyes closed.
"I-im sorry..." He says as he finally let's me go and stands back.
I felt so empty..
I want to feel his lips on mine...
To feel him again...
To be in his arms again...

3rd persons pov
Jungkook leaned on his door frame as he kept his head down.
"I-im okay... Stop saying your sorry...pabo " She says as she laughs at him.
He looks up to her to see her smiling brightly at him, her smile was enough to make his rainy days into the most brightest of them all.
"I was going to get some ice cream...do you want some.." Jungkook asks her unsure of her answer.
"Yeah sure."
"Wait here I'll get us some" He says as he ran off excitedly like a child.
She enters his room and settles on his bed, his room was basically the same as hers.

She's suddenly remembers Sara..wondering how she is...if she's sleeping soundly tonight, did she cry at all.
The last she called was 2 hours before the shoot was over..
She wants to video chat with Mary so that she could see sara but she knows that would just be rude especially if Mary has gone to bed as well.

Jungkook enters the room with 2 ice cream tubs in his hands, a spoon in his mouth while dangling the other spoon in between his middle finger and index fingers.
"There's cookie dough and just plain chocolate....I know you're favourites cookie dough so..." He mumbles with the spoon in his mouth but was still audible, she giggled at how he was struggling. She helped him by taking the spoon out of his mouth and the one dangling nearly falling and one of the ice tubs. "Thanks " She let's out softly at the boy who's now sitting with her with his legs crossed on the bed.
She looks out the window hearing the rain drops from earlier become heavier and louder. "Seems like it's going to rain heavily all night" Jungkook says swallowing a whole spoonful of his ice cream. She smiles at how easily amused he is with food,she opens her ice cream tub and scoops out a large piece and slowly eats it off the spoon piece by piece. "You still do that?" He asks as he watched her eat her ice cream like she did before. "I'm still the same person pabo."She says putting the spoon back in the tub to get another.
He couldn't help but grin at her comment.

Just as she was about to put the spoon in her mouth a loud bang from outside causes her to throw the spoon in the air and she jumps off the bed burying her head in her knees. Jungkook couldn't help but laugh at her sudden actions at the thunder. "Your still....you...are still afraid of the thunder!!" He says trying to catch his breathe from the laughing. Y/N stands up from the floor and dusts her legs confidently. "NOPE! Not anymore!". She sits back down on the bed with her arms crossed looking at the boy who seemed to be struggling keeping in his laugh. "Ok..ok..I'm sorry" He apologies after laughing enough at her. But it was only for another few seconds before a thunder came causing her to jump on the floor with her back leaning on the bed burying her face in her knees. She's shaking in fear, about to cry but she shut her eyes closed tightly until she felt his hands wrap around her. "Sshhh...I'm sorry..it's okay...I'm here.." He says reassuring her after remembering those nights on the phone when you'd call scared of the thunder but hearing his voice was soothing enough for you and he couldn't even come to you because he was away in a different country, so he would always just sing you a song.