Writing Letters [completed // editing]

winning entry

dear ash, 

          my hands shake as i hold this pencil. i'm struggling to write words, while you seem to easily transfer the roaring rain on the blank sheet of paper. 

             i don't know why i never responded. if i did, would it have changed? 

            you see, my brain doesn't to work anymore. i can no longer think, i can no longer move, i can no longer love anyone but you. i've gone insane. no, seriously, everyone says so, my friends say so, my therapist says so. 

            i can't think of anything more than a sorry for you. you don't really need more than that, i bet. i bet you want me to suffer, just like i made you. i hope you realized, your tears soon became mine. 

            i still love you. 

            i will always love you.

            i will die loving you. 

            i love you. 

            i don't know what else to write. 

            i'm going to burn the letters you sent me. i'm going insane by reading them. 

still loving you,

angel

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this is not written by me.