Little Things

Silence

I have never known of someone

crying over me..

and yet you said it

plain and clear that

you were hurt and

there was nothing I could do because

it was both of us

together

we took the risk we

pay the consequences

I learned a long time ago

how to hold tears in my eyes for hours and

let them roll down my cheeks peacefully and

make no noise as my

heart broke inside my chest

but as I listened to you on the phone

I knew that you were crying again

I have never known of someone

sharing their emotions so truthfully

the way you do

and I don't know if you heard the

tears in my voice or

in my breaths

but while we talked

tears rolled down my face and

I took deep breaths

because I am so used to not sharing my emotions..

maybe this is why

I am so self-destructive,

because I lie to myself

to trick me into being happier

and I hold all my feelings

inside

and do not share my thoughts

because I am afraid

that they are too wild and too strong

and I have seen the way they scare people away

I sit alone in my

silent room

watching the world outside

wishing that I could experience it with you

but the time as come

(as you told me, so I will listen to you)

to move on

so I cry in silence

patiently waiting for something else

beautiful

to come along but

I am afraid that it will never

be as wonderful as you