I wake up every day now
feeling deep regret
for not staying up and
talking to you
I go to sleep every night now
full of wishes
that you were next to me
instead of so far away
And all through the day I feel alone,
trapped inside this box that has become
my life forever suffocating
in what I've grown used to
Sometimes a breeze will
blow through and
I will feel refreshed
but that freedom is always taken away.
When I cannot sleep
I become aware of all the tears
resting behind my eyes and the
anxiety that things are not going right
And when I tell you I love you,
know that it's always true
but when I tell you I'm good
it's not the same good as when I was with you
I feel the distance growing
but our hopes getting stronger
and I don't know whether to worry that we will say goodbye
or to keep believing in what we have.
I still get sad about things that don't matter,
I still think about the past
and I worry about what you're doing
because you don't tell me all about your life
I know I'm silly, needy, and
younger than you
but all of these emotions
are eating me inside
And there's so much going on
So I play our songs
my heart beats in time with their base
and I remember everything..
If I could just
give you these poems
without scaring you
because I have so many feelings
I want to know
every thought that passes
through your mind
that I have fallen in love with
I want to hear your voice
and I want to sing
horribly off tune
with you
Because you make me happier than
anyone has ever before
and I get scared when you get emotional
that you will say goodbye to me
And break all of our promises,
they all said it wouldn't work
I'd wonder why I didn't listen,
my empty heart would cry for weeks.
But not now,
not now we are
so close to
where we want to be
I believe,
I sing along to our songs
this pain will end
we can apply ice and pressure when we see each other again.
But no,
you say
it's not happening
and I say
Alright
because that's the thing
about
pain.
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Little Things
Short StoryThis is my next poetry book. In a world where everyone struggles to find happiness, it's the littlest things that make the biggest difference.