Diary of a Schizophrenic (Maddening Series: Book 1)

Log #2

Log #2

ive been placed down at station 53 with three other troops. general doc is leading us but i fear he may be a spy. i caught him reading my logs. i dont know what day it is. were running low on supplies and one of the troops in unresponsive due to poisoning. i fear i might be getting poisoned as well. we fear we will die if we do not get more food. we fear it is poisoned.

doc says hes helping me. id like to see how.

i dont trust him.

i dont trust my troops.

i miss my friends.

these people here will never be my friends.

i just want to lie in bed... lie and sleep forever. with my pillow. but my pillow is jealous of my sheets. he thinks im cheating on her. i could never, i love it too much.

i feel fuzzy. is it possible to feel fuzzy? because i do. i dont remember ever feeling as fuzzy as i do now. my level of fuzziness... is too great. i dont want to feel fuzzy. i want to feel like i felt before.

back when i had friends. i look in a frame today and i saw a girl burned up pretty badly. she tried to smile but couldnt.

i want to smile, but i can only have one emotion at once since im a fairy, and right now its just all fuzzy. like a cactus.

fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy

i miss my smile. i can just see her standing there. she was so pretty.

just like you were...

i heard hope. at least one of my friends is back! she is back, isnt she? oh, i hope she is. i wouldnt be so alone. or fuzzy.