Love Me If You Dare

21

When I woke the next morning Reaye was still in my arms and I thought I woke up inside a dream. She looked up and kissed my cheek and my heart had melted once again. This girl was going to be the death of me if I lost her one more time. She is all I’ve ever wanted and all I’ll ever need.

“Good morning beautiful.”

“Good morning babes, how’d you sleep?”

“Amazing because I got to sleep with you.”

“I agree to the fullest, I never thought I would have you in my arms again, I don’t think you can begin to understand how much you mean to me. You’ve changed me for the best Reaye and I’m forever thankful for that.”

“You’ve changed me as well babes, you’ve changed me in a way I never thought possible. You have a bigger impact on my heart and mind then I ever thought possible.”

“How did I do such a thing?”

“Easy, you opened my heart and mind. You made me realize it’s better to live my life as the person I am to make myself happy rather than living a lie to make everyone else happy. How did I change you?”

“Because the only thing I ever wanted in life was for someone to love me unconditionally. You do. You stood up to your parents and told them off and risked getting kicked out. You did all of that for me. Even if we can’t actually be together I’m happy you’re still in my life, I don’t know what I would do without you, You made me smarten up and realize I need to apply myself fully if I’m ever going to make it somewhere. I need to stop smoking pot and put my friends first before myself. I love taking care of people I’ve just been in a fucked up state of mind to be able to do so. What I’m trying to get to Reaye is that you save me, whenever I want to give up and drop to my knees I can hear you in my head urging to me to go forward and never give up. I remember the day you told me I was admirable for everything I’ve been through and that if you had even an ounce of the courage I have you’d be able to make it through this, Baby you are so much stronger then you give yourself credit for. You’ve done the un thinkable and put your parents in their place and I think you are beyond admirable for that.”

“D you have my whole heart. It’s me and you against the whole world. I will always be here for you and with you. I will fight anything and anyone who tries to get in the way of us. To hold onto something or someone you need to fight with everything you have. If my parents had kicked me out I would have came straight here and jumped in your arms. I would do anything to be with you again. When I look into your beautiful green eyes I see me and you getting married. I see you holding our child and looking at him or her the way you look at me. When I hear country music I remember the night we sat on your deck and stared at the stars and you sang along to every single song that came on the radio, When I hear the word forever your face pops into mind. When I go to bed by myself my heart cries for you and my arms long to hold you again. So you see I don’t think you can begin to understand. I always thought being gay was weird but when I think about you I know it’s right. My friend had asked me the other day where do I see myself in twenty years? My response was married to you. Iloveyou D I love everything about you. The biggest reason I broke up with Andrew is because as I said he’s not you, He doesn’t have your quirks. He doesn’t care if things are odd or done in any random order. He isn’t anywhere close to as observant as you are, He doesn’t pay attention me like you do. He definitely didn’t love me like you do.”

“No one will ever love you the way I do. You really see yourself married to me in ten years?”

“Well hopefully it doesn’t take us ten years to get married. I should also warn you that I’m going to prom with Andrew because we already have everything. I don’t want you to be hurt when you see us together”