Diary of My Girl (COMPLETED)

Chapter 18: My Choice

a/n: Nung una ko 'tong sinulat, comedy ito na t-transcend into evilish then drama. Kaso, I changed everything, as in binura ko lahat. Nakakapanghinayang. Pero hope you'll ENJOY THIS CHAPTER!

Sa inyo nakasalalay kung kelan ko ippublish ang next chapter. VOTE and COMMENT equals NEXT CHAPTER!

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LEN'S POV

Puti?

Malas.

May sa pusa ata ako. Bakit? Kasi kung patay na ako, dapat hindi puti ang nakikita ko, dahil sigurado akong sa impyerno ang lagapak ko.

Ugh. Buong katawan ko masakit, pero biruin nyo nga naman. here I am still alive after daring the Death-God.

I wish I just have died.

Nasaan pala ako? This is not my room, that's for sure. Ang plain ng kisame e -_-

I looked at my right side where something soft and warm is hindering my intention to move my hand.

Even if I can't see the person's face, I know it is her.

She's asleep.

Nakasandal ang ulo sa kama ko, habang nakahawak ang kamay nya sa kamay ko. Her soft hand sends tingles and undecipherable warmth to my hand traveling throughout my whole body.

It feels so warm that my chest hurts from pounding too much.

What is this feeling? It's weird...and...

I don't like it.

Hinila ko ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak nya, but I unintentionally touched her head on the process. Nahawi ang buhok nyang nakatakip sa kalahati ng mukha nya, kaya ngayon ay sumambulat sakin ang...

maamo nyang mukha.

Noong una pa lang, maganda na sya sa paningin ko. She has an angelic face. Mukhang hindi gagawa ng masama. Mukhang mahina. Mukhang masarap alagaan.

At first, inaasar ko sya, just for the sake of pang-aasar. But later on, I find her cuter when she's mad, kaya mas napagtripan ko syang tawagin ng kung anu-anong pang-asar, na naging mabenta naman sa kanya.

Minsan sumasagi rin sa isip ko...sino ba ang isang Sulli Choi sa harap ng camera? Sino ba sya bago ko sya nakilala?

Hindi ko namalayan na I'm already tracing her features with my finger tips.

Her fair skin was so smooth.

Mahaba pala ang pilik mata nya? Ngayon ko lang napansin.

Matangos ang ilong nya kahit maliit. Cute.

Her lips looks pale...suddenly something 'ugh' popped in my mind.

Her love confession and her kiss.

I shut my eyes tightly to block the flashbacks of her addicting kiss.

That wasn't my first...but... AISH! Kissing her back wasn't right! I shouldn't have allowed that to happen. It's too unfair for her. After all the things she has suffered because of me.

I can still remember how dazed she is after being molested by Myungsoo. I don't even know kung anong ginawa sa kanya ng hayop na 'yon! That was a terrifying experience for her, and it is all because of me!

"I'm sorry Sulli." I soundlessly mouthed. Nagkaleche-leche ang buhay nya dahil sakin. Kasalanan ko lahat 'to. I shouldn't have entered her life. I shouldn't have fancied the thought na matutulungan nya akong pawiin ang bangungot ng nakaraan. It's my problem but I dragged her into my chaotic life. "I'm so sorry Sulli." slowly tears built up on my eyelids. This is gay.