1972 is a bit sweet!

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Chapter 86

Si Nan smiled at Chai Jian with a faint smile and said, "Let me tell you a story."

Sitting in the stuffy medical tent, Si Nan fanned herself with a cattail leaf fan that someone gave her. Slowly there will be no wind at all.

That day, after Si Nan woke up from a coma, the moment he saw Chai Jian, he threw himself into Chai Jian's arms and cried loudly. That aggrieved look made Chai Jian heartbroken.

But after crying, Si Nan didn't know what happened, and always looked miserable. He became less talkative and less interested in talking to others.

She was...not like this before.

They knew Si Nan's origin and family background quite clearly after being together for several years. But just because they knew it, they were always curious about Si Nan's many little habits.

Not to mention some of her own living habits, just say that when guests come to the house, even if they are people she doesn't like, she will make tea and water and serve some fruits or dried fruits to entertain the guests.

When guests leave, they will definitely see them off. No matter what kind of weather it is, people will be sent outside the gate. Not only that, she would stand at the door for two or three more minutes before going back to the house.

She understands the meaning of reciprocity very well. After receiving something from someone, she will definitely give a similar or even larger gift in return the next day.

Also, when talking to someone, always look into their eyes. Even if you talk to children, you will not make yourself condescending...

These must be behavioral patterns developed through years of living habits.

But now... subconsciously avoiding the sight of others. When you ask her anything, she either nods or shakes her head, or else she answers you in the shortest possible terms.

After being silent and passive for several days, Simon finally felt like speaking.

Just,

she wants to tell a story?

What kind of story would make her want to talk?

Chai Jian couldn't describe what it felt like, and felt empty and panicked. The hand on his side clenched subconsciously, and after taking a deep breath, he slowly let go of his hand.

"...Okay."

"A moving train... If the train follows the original track, it will kill three people. If the track is changed in time, then only one person will be killed." After a pause, Simon tilted his head and looked at Chai Jian. , with a hint of trance on his face, "If Ah Jian was the driver of the train, what would Ah Jian do?"

"Follow the original track." Chai Jian only took a few seconds to think, and then became very sure. He replied, "All lives have the same weight, and there should be no difference in how many or how little."

The lives of three people are lives, but the life of one person is not life?

That's not how it works.

Si Nan tilted his head to look at him and nodded lightly, as it should be.

"What about ten to one?"

After hearing this, Chai Jian replied firmly and without hesitation, "No change."

In Chai Jian's view, if the train does not change its trajectory, no matter how many people there are, it is bound to be an accident. And changing a train track, even by just one person, is intentional murder.

"What about a hundred to one?"

Chai Jian frowned slightly. He didn't quite understand why Simon was so persistent on this question, so he still answered firmly, "No change."

"What about a thousand to one?"

...

asked Qian During the competition, Chai Jian began to hesitate and spent a long time thinking. Sinan's answer was still the same "no change", but his "no change" could no longer convince himself.

When Si Nan asked about ten thousand to one, Chai Jian could no longer answer the answer "unchanged". He looked at Si Nan silently, and after a long while, he whispered in a dry voice, "I don't know."

Looking at Chai Jian in front of him, Si Nan was confused. She used to always suspect that Chai Jian was mentally unstable, so what standard did she use to measure Chai Jian.

Is Chai Jian's answer a normal person's answer or an abnormal person's answer?

Unable to figure it out, Si Nan glanced at Chai Jian one last time, then turned his gaze to the entrance of the tent, looking out with dull eyes, as if he had lost all energy. "You don't even know if it's tens of thousands to one."

Chai Jian: "..."

What crime did the train driver have to make such a choice?

No, that's definitely not what Simon asked.

But what was she asking?

Tens of thousands?

Thinking of this number, Chai Jian couldn't help but think of the number of casualties in this earthquake. But Chai Jian immediately rejected this fleeting thought.

This is an earthquake and a natural disaster. How can we have a choice?

Just when Chai Jian was thinking about the meaning of the story told by Si Nan, Si Nan said softly, "I want to go back" in a trance-like voice with some confusion.

I just don't know if this sentence was said to Hai Chao or if she was talking to herself.

At this moment, Chai Jian was finally sure that there was something wrong with Simon's mental condition.

Self-blame, self-doubt, avoidance, guilt, and even thoughts of suicide and rejection.

Walking to the camp bed that was used as a hospital bed, Chai Jian squatted beside the bed, eye level with Sinan. Holding Si Nan's scabbed hand in his hand, he asked Si Nan in a seemingly casual but actually cautious voice, "Can you tell me now, why did you come to Phoenix? And why did you wear the hospital ward to participate? Rescue?"

Perhaps the latter question was what Chai Jian was most concerned about.

"I'm here to be the savior." Si Nan looked at the two injured hands held together for a long time, then raised his eyes to look at Chai Jian, and while withdrawing his hand, said with a self-deprecating smile. , "It's a pity that my head was smashed as soon as I got off the train. When I woke up, it was only a few minutes before the earthquake."

If she woke up at 1:30 that night, would she have returned to the present time? Already?

Hearing this, Chai Jian couldn't help but feel scared again.

Just like what Si Nan said just now, if Si Nan wakes up at half hour at night, they won't be able to collect the corpses even if they come to collect them.

There were too many secrets and doubts about Si Nan, but Chai Jian took a look at Si Nan's mental state at this moment and didn't dare to ask anything.

Standing up, he first went to the foot of the bed and took a look at Simon's little feet. Seeing that the ointment he had applied earlier had dried, he used the medicine he had put aside long ago and dipped cotton in it to wash off the dried ointment bit by bit.

After gently taking care of the injury on Si Nan's foot, Chai Jian looked up at Si Nan and found that Si Nan had returned to his previous negative look.

After getting along for several years, Chai Jian and the others were all too aware of how timid Si Nan was. In Chai Jian's opinion, Si Nan was already remarkable for facing the disaster and still being able to participate in the rescue even though he was injured.

Are you proud of her?

Yes, proud. But that's not what he wants.

He just wanted her to remain a little girl.

"You take good care of yourself. We will go back in a few days." After

Chai Jian finished speaking, she waited for a while. Seeing that Si Nan was motionless, she knew that she still didn't want to talk.

Two days later, Captain Cai followed Wu Ming to the temporary hospital. After seeing Si Nan, he also frowned and sighed.

Si Nan asked for leave before and went out. Because he was in a hurry to leave, he only talked to the old branch secretary once. Captain Cai later heard that Si Nan had taken leave and left the village, so he just thought she had gone to Jin City. The production team had little work, and the village primary school was on summer vacation. Si Nan's departure would not have any impact, so Captain Cai didn't take it seriously.

Later, the news about Phoenix City came out, and the old party secretary suddenly mentioned that Sinan had written a letter of introduction and wanted to come to Phoenix City.

When Captain Cai heard this, he was shocked and quickly asked Si Nan the reason for asking for leave.

Si Nan is also amazing.

At this time, you need a letter of introduction if you want to go out to buy trains, accommodation or anything else. So she told the old party secretary that she had nothing to do during the summer vacation, and she was going to Tianjin City to see her brother. He also said that he had read a book before and it said that there is a kind of medicinal herb in Phoenix that can be fed to livestock to reduce mortality and prevent epidemic diseases. It is said that Phoenix City is very close to Jin City, and I want to go there and buy some herbs and seeds.

At that time, the old branch secretary also told Simon that if it was too expensive, he would buy less seeds.

When Captain Cai heard this and thought about the news coming out of Phoenix City, he felt that if Si Nan was in Phoenix City, it would be very bad.

However, it is also possible that Sinan has not gone to Phoenix City yet, or has already left Phoenix City.

Chai Jian and Wu Ming knew that Sinan's destination was to Phoenix City, so they didn't take any chances that Sinan might not be here.

It wasn't until they encountered the unconscious Sinan during the search and rescue that Captain Cai and a group of villagers from Sanyou Village looked at the matter with a feeling of 'she is really here'.

They have been here for a while, and they have been searching and rescuing survivors like many other teams from across the country supporting Phoenix City.

Now that the search and rescue has basically come to an end, reconstruction cannot be built in a short time. So the support team coming out of Tao City was ready to go home.

Captain Cai had heard Wu Ming talk about Si Nan's situation before. This time Captain Cai came here to see Si Nan and to talk about leaving.

He felt that Si Nan would definitely follow them and leave, but in order to show that he was democratic, he still had to ask.

Maybe Ren Sinan still wants to go to Tianjin~

...

What kind of proof was given by Phoenix City when I went back? Anyway, I just took the train back and didn't need to buy a ticket.

There were many of them and they didn't have much luggage. And because the rescue work in the past month was really hard, all these people fell asleep as soon as they got on the train.

Si Nan sat by the window, sometimes tilting his head on the car wall and looking out the window quietly, sometimes closing his eyes and looking at nothing.

Raging autumn tigers, sultry environment, noisy crowds. The smell of sweat, stench, and green onions and garlic filled the entire carriage, but Simon seemed to be completely unaware of these.

Quiet like a lifeless doll.

Chai Jian never mentioned the 'story' that Sinan told that day to anyone. Not even Wu Ming or Chai Jian said anything. Everyone else thought that Si Nan was frightened. After all, the rescuers knew how tragic the scene was. But Chai Jian knew that Si Nan was not just scared.

But even though he knew the problem was not simple, he still didn't know what to do for Simon.

Maybe, we can only wait for time.

As time goes by, the injury will heal.

It was already the end of August when I got home, and the village elementary school was about to start school. But although Si Nan's body was fine, her mental condition had never recovered.

No matter how much Wu Liang teased her, Si Nan couldn't bring up the interest to joke around with him.

The villagers learned about what Sinan had gone through from the villagers who came back, and they all came to visit Sinan and asked about things in Phoenix City. Then they also discovered that Si Nan was really a completely different person than he was more than a month ago.

And what about Si Nan.

What was she thinking?

In fact, Si Nan didn't know what she was thinking.

Si Nan didn't want to think about the matter in Phoenix City, nor did he dare to think about it. She went into self-imposed exile and left everything in Phoenix behind.

Human's self-protection mechanism has indeed managed to seal off the memory of Phoenix City, but after forgetting everything about Phoenix City, Simon still has no interest in anything.

Just lazy.

The kind of laziness from mind to body.

Every September, the village primary school holds an opening ceremony. This is a 'tradition' passed down from the first year the village primary school was put into use.

Although this tradition lasted only a few years.

Every year's opening ceremony is hosted by Si Nan. Then every year's opening ceremony is almost the same, without much change.

This year, Si Nan's condition was obviously not good to the naked eye. Ye Qiuling felt that she was familiar with Si Nan's tricks, so she volunteered to share Si Nan's worries.

Si Nan did everything he could. He didn't even bother to shrug his shoulders to show that he didn't care. With a faint "Oh", he gave up his identity as the host of the opening ceremony.

Every year at the opening ceremony, village cadres are invited to attend. After participating for a few years, it became a habit. What they were not used to this year was Ye Qiuling, who had been preparing for a long time but was still so nervous that she choked on her feet.

Ye Qiuling doesn't think so, she thinks she is very brave.

So after hosting an opening ceremony, she had a different kind of confidence.

"Sports meeting?"

As soon as Ye Qiuling returned to the office that day, she told Simon and the lesson preparer Xiang Aihua about the idea of ​​holding a sports meeting.

After taking classes for a period of time, Si Nan had gradually regained some of his energy. Later, he organized all the teachers and students in the school to learn about earthquake emergency response, and then organized everyone to simulate an earthquake. After that, Sinan seemed to be resurrected with full health, as if he was back to the state before summer vacation.

However, it is still uncertain whether it left any psychological trauma.

"There must be prizes for a sports meeting, right?" After hearing Ye Qiuling's proposal to hold a sports meeting, Si Nan asked her, "Do we have a budget for this expense?"