Wicked Games (Urban) Book 7 | The Sideline Series

Chapter 5

Lindsey

Saturday evening, the next day, I sat in Ava's bedroom that she shared with Adrian and watched as she did my makeup for this date I was supposed to be going on tonight. Stephen said that only way he was going to let Theodore play int he game is if I come somewhere with him tonight and dress nicely. He never said where we were going or what we were doing, so I just assumed he was taking me out to dinner and I was excited. I haven't been out on a date in years, let alone talked to a guy that wasn't a part of my family, and I didn't even have to put any effort into finding myself a good man. A good man came to me. 

"You're gonna be so happy once you turn around and see how good you look," Ava told me. "So, are you excited for tonight?"

A huge smile spread across my face. "Yes."

"I can tell," she chuckled. "What's this man's name? How old is he? Does he have a job? And how'd you two meet?"

I chuckled. "Damn Ava, it's not even that serious."

She hit my arm. "You're my little sister, it's supposed to be that serious especially after what happened to you a few years ago. I feel like what happened to you is partially my fault. If I wasn't away at school with Adrian, then I would have been there to protect you and show you what not to do what men. I could have helped you so you weren't around bitch ass niggas like Jordan and John."

I sighed. "Don't blame yourself Ava. I was," I paused, just trying to find the right words to describe myself back then. Whore? Slutty? Sleazy? "I was a hoe," I finished.

A hoe was the only way I knew how to describe myself. I was bouncing back and forth between two guys who I thought had good intentions for me but were truly waiting to see my demise. If I hadn't let my guard down and been so naive to let these guys do anything they wanted to me, I wouldn't have let Luther get a hold of me. And it's not Ava's fault. How could she help that she was away at school and I always acted like I had things under control? She didn't know what was truly going on with me because I never truly came out with what was going on with me with no one, not even Ava.

"You weren't a hoe but you were fast as hell and one of us should have stopped you before you got out of control."

"No, I was a hoe. If I wasn't a hoe, I wouldn't have been messing around with two guys at the same time and I wouldn't have let them ease their ways into my life. It was obvious they just wanted to hurt me and get what's between my legs and I should have listened to you guys when you told me that but I swore I was so smart and I swore I could do it on my own. I didn't think I could do any wrong, but I made a horrible mistake and it hurt me to the core," I said.

I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. Those well deserved tears were about to pour out of my eyes like a waterfall and within a few seconds, I wouldn't be able to do much to control them. "Wait! Don't cry, I don't want you to ruin your make up," Ava said as she dabbed at the corners of my eyes as a few of the tears started dripping out. "And I've told you before not to beat yourself up about that. You could have been a hoe. You could have been the biggest hoe in all of California but that doesn't mean they had to do that to you. They were sick, disgusting and animals. No person in their right mind does something like that to an innocent, teenage girl."

I nodded my head and was just about to open my mouth when Theodore walked inside of her bedroom talking. "You know Ava, you gon' have to do something about that dog your neighbors got next door. All I did was walk outside to put that bag of trash in the can and that little devil started barking at me like I'm not always over here. I was two seconds away from jumping over that fence and giving that damn dog a piece of my mind."

Avan and I laughed. "That dog would've tore your courageous ass up. Do you know what kind of dog that is?" Ava asked him but he just shrugged his shoulders.