Lost Love

Chapter 4

Phayu P.O.V

He saw me. He saw me and Ple. He probably hates me. He is in a hospital somewhere hating me. My innocent little Rain. He loved me so much but I still betrayed him. If I hadn't canceled our date that day, he would be in my arms right now. I feel so stupid and useless. Instead of me hiring a private investigator, it was Prapai, he is my boyfriend but others are working harder to find him. I am filled with self hatred, I hurt him. I promised that I would take care of him and make him happy, but instead I caused him the biggest heartbreak.

For the next 3 months we hear nothing from the private investigator, until I get a call from Prapai. It was a miracle I was sober right now but I am glad I am. As soon as I find out where Rain is, I will fly there asap.

I arrive at Prapai's house and we sit down in the dining room with the investigator.

"Where is he? Where is Rain?" I want to know now!

"I'll get to that, but there are a lot of things you guys need to know about Rain," the investigator looked grim. My heart dropped at the faces he made. Rain had to be ok!

"Rain was not the biological son of the man named Stop. He had actually been kidnapped by this man. His biological parents had been looking for him for quite a few years. They were finally able to locate him but when they did, it was when Stop was beating him. They had Stop arrested and they immediately flew Rain to a medical facility in the U.S... Rain suffered a lot of head trauma, internal bleeding and broken bones. I am sorry to inform you guys that he didn't survive. He was pronounced dead a month ago. His parents had him cremated and disappeared. No matter how hard I looked, I couldn't find them. I am sorry guys but Rain is no longer with us."

I am hearing wrong. There is something wrong with my ears. Rain can't be dead. He can't be. Rain deserved to live a long and happy life! Not die at the hands of a kidnapper. I start sobbing uncontrollably. It was all my fault! If I hadn't helped Ple, Rain would still be alive. If Ple hadn't kissed me, Rain would still be alive.

"It's your fault!" I feel something hitting me. " Rain is dead because of you! I will never forgive you P' Phayu! It's all your fault that my best friend is gone!"

Since that day all I can manage to do is wake up, go to work and drink. I don't feel like doing anything else. Rain isn't with me anymore so I don't have a reason to work hard.

I had just gotten home from work and was ready to drink the night away when someone came to visit me. I almost closed the door in her face.

"Phayu wait! I came to apologize! I heard about what happened to Rain and I never wanted that to happen. I never meant for things to go this far," she was crying. Why is she crying? She doesn't deserve to cry for Rain. She is part of the reason why he is dead.

"Ple I want you to leave. I told you I didn't want to see you again." I should just close the door in her face.

"It wasn't your fault Phayu. I planned it all. I knew you had a boyfriend, but I love you. I have always loved you. I wanted you to look at me like you looked at him. I thought that if you spent time with me, you would see that I was better than him. I asked my cousin Som to invite all his juniors, I wanted you guys to break up. I knew that if he saw us kissing he would break up with you. I thought that I would be able to convince you to love me. I know it was wrong, and I am sorry you broke up. Som yelled at me and told me that he left you permanently and that you weren't taking it well. If he really loved you, he would have forgiven you. Can't you see? I am the best option for you!"

The audacity of this girl actually makes me laugh before I break the beer bottle still in my hand.

"He didn't break up with me. He didn't get the chance! YOU KILLED HIM, WHEN YOU KISSED ME YOU KILLED HIM. RAIN IS DEAD AND IT'S YOUR FAULT! I HATE YOU PLE, I HATE YOU LIKE I NEVER HATED ANYONE IN THIS WORLD. RAIN IS GONE FOREVER. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN BECAUSE NEXT TIME I WILL HIT YOU WITH A BOTTLE INSTEAD OF THE WALL. LEAVE AND NEVER COMEBACK. I HOPE YOU ARE MISERABLE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE."

I slam the door in her face before she can say anything else. It was all planned. She planned to take Rain from me and it worked. I have to accept that it was my fault too. I never should have accepted. Tomorrow is the weekend so I decided to drink until I black out.

"P' Phayu! Come on, get up!" I wake up to Sky trying to help me to the restroom.

"Sky? Why are you here? I thought you hated me."

"Ugh, sober up and then we can talk ok."

Once I sober up and have some food in me Sky starts talking to me.

"I'm sorry P' Phayu. It was wrong of me to blame you. I also should have told Rain what was happening as soon as I learned what was going on. And you tried your best for Rain. I know you did. The fault lies with Stop and P' Ple. So P' Phayu get your life together. Rain wouldn't want to see you like this."

Getting forgiveness from Sky lifted a burden off of my shoulders. Sky was the closest thing to family Rain had and he was forgiving me. We cried together and promised to remember him always. But I just couldn't deal with not having him near me so I decided to become a monk.

I need to have some peace and quiet and if I am ever ready to live my life again I will do so, but for now I don't have any plans of leaving.