❝ 𝙛𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢𝙨 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙚 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙛𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢𝙨 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 ❞
hi, it's me clara again and this time around i've decided to head forwards a new route in my songw...
About that once princess the mice dubbed 'Cinderelly'
And honestly, I think she's so misunderstood
Everyone seems to think the story's hook
Is a Prince saves her from her household misery
So she therefore instantly becomes royalty
PRE-CHORUS:
But that's not what I see x2
CHORUS:
You see, what I see in Ella is actually me
And I take comfort i knowing
That I too could receive my happy ending
2ND VERSE:
Deep inside all my life, it's been constant lies
By those I once trusted and deemed good in
It turns out that even mothers treat their child in ways they shouldn't
Cause even emotional abuse sets trauma
I've been disillusioned to what legit love is
After 18 years of trying my best, I wasn't truly cherished
PRE-CHORUS:
All my parents ever did was manipulate me
Like I was a puppet with pulled strings
But you, my love, has set me free
I'm so glad you've found me
CHORUS:
You see, what I see in Ella is actually me
And I take comfort i knowing
That I too could receive my happy ending
And you might not be a prince
But you've brought forthwith a love that isn't wicked
Your love is actually different
It's pure and true, and ever since, I've been in love with you
BRIDGE:
And sometimes I wish that the mice running loose in my room
Could poof into designated drivers and take me to you
And we could start a new life **
But until that time comes, I'll stand by
Gazing at the moon at Midnight
Knowing you love me too
CHORUS:
You see, what I see in Ella is actually me
And I take comfort i knowing
That I too could receive my happy ending
And you might not be a prince
But you've brought forthwith a love that isn't wicked
Your love is actually different
It's pure and true, and ever since, I've been in love with you
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This is honestly one of the most vulnerable songs that I've ever written. In the past, I've written how heartbreak has changed my aspect of whether love exists for me, but honestly it's nothing compared to my shitty relationship with both my parents. In fact, I'm quite peaceful now regarding past romantic heartbreak. But just everything about the two related to me by blood... not so much. I don't really like to talk about it, I rarely ever do.
All I will say is that I never deserved to feel like this. I don't need a daily basis of excessive screaming and swearing and getting blamed for things. I didn't need to feel like I wasn't enough. Literally the grudge by Olivia Rodrigo, it's exactly like that. I just realized today how relatable that song is.
I never realized the damage done by parents can go on to haunt you when it comes to legit love. You don't feel worthy, and since you were never given true affection, sometimes love feels embarrassing and I cringe at affection when I say it. For some reason saying "I'm in love with you" scares me.
For a long time I went along with the crowd and "called out" Disney for the Cinderella tale. I never realized how relatable she is- just working so hard for her parental guardian yet never being enough, not being appreciated and they don't care, it's only their shit that matters and just being treated shitty. And also never being able to go anywhere and having to stay cooped in all your life.
Then you realize it doesn't have to be like that... You could actually be happy with someone who genuinely loves you regardless of anything.
