Chris
God what's wrong with me? How could I fuck this up so easily and let the woman I'm in love with slip away like that? Why did I push so hard? How can I leave without pleading with her that we're meant for each other? It had to be stupid cupid who shot me in my fucking heart. I should've left her alone and kept my distance then I wouldn't be feeling like shit right now. I had to fix this but I don't know how.
All I kept picturing was her tears falling down her beautiful face and how she looked heart broken when she told me to leave. Shit my heart broke when she said act like she never existed and pushed me away from her. I kept thinking of the way she kissed me back and allowed me to deepen the kiss. If I had the chance to pull open her robe I could've made love to her, I could feel every curve on her body when she allowed me to wrap her legs around me. Damn if I could run back to her right now and make her mine. I just wanted to kiss her tears away and love every inch of her body to make all of her pain go away. I should've listened to her when she said she'll hurt me and I'll hate her forever. What did she mean I'll hate her forever when all I want to do is love her as much as she needs me to? I guess I hurt myself by being too hard on this thing called love.
When I got home all I wanted to do was break down but I was too strong for that, I was hurt so many times I'm immune to it. But this feels like somebody stabbed me in my heart and took it out of my chest, now I'm left with emptiness. I stopped drinking for a while now but this makes me want to down a whole bottle with no chaser. So I just smoked two blunts to calm me down but it wasn't working so I called a few of my female friends to get a woman's perspective.
"What's wrong?"-Chloe
"You look like shit first of all and why the hell are you calling a sister this late? You couldn't wait until the sun was above the clouds to hit me up?"-Teyana
"Well damn he called for a reason, let's hear him out. Even though it's late as fuck. Like I didn't just put Noah to sleep"-Jhene said annoyed
"I feel like shit because I feel like I fucked up big time"-I sighed
"What you gotta nother bitch pregnant, excuse my french. Because you said those same exact words when you found out about Lovely."-Teyana
"Bruh"-Chloe
"Nah it's something deeper than that"-Chris
"What is it? Talk about it then before I hang up"-Jhene
"I fell for a woman I just met four days ago and we decided to be friends but I pushed her too hard by exposing my true feelings, on top of that she told me to act like she never existed and leave. Before I left I told her that I love her and now I feel like I'm going to lose the one woman that I think I'll spend the rest of my life with. The one thing she keeps telling me is she's not who she truly is and I don't get that part, I never been so addicted to a woman like this before and I don't know what to do."-I confessed
"Well damn I never knew I would hear something like that come out of your mouth, I'm speechless"-Teyana
"Same here but you just met her four days ago how do you know you're in love with her?"-Chloe
"When she says she's not who she truly is it means she's hiding something from you or being somebody she's not. So basically she's living a double life."-Teyana
"It's that love at first sight thing, he's not only fell in love with her he's spiritually intertwined with her soul. They were meant to cross paths for some reason I can tell by the way he explained it that not only are they meant to cross paths, he's supposed to save her from something she's been trying to get away from for years. Only thing you can do is wait until she's ready to call you in her time of need."-Jhene
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Normal Girl
FanfictionI never thought that I would fall for a woman at first sight and she would have me jumping through hoops just to get her to be mine. It's something strange about her that I feel like I should distance myself from her but she keeps pulling me into he...
