silenceall i hear is silence off your lips
the air between us becoming stagnant,
stale with what was left unsaidand inside myself, i endure each heartfelt palpitation
that curls around and suffocates each nerve ending i havebecause tension is death—
death in the way that it feels like everything in the world is going all wrong
and your lungs can't take it, so they strain for oxygen
oxygen that isn't quite pure, but tainted—
tainted with your silencei wait,
i wait, and i wait, and i wait
for something,
anything from you as a sign that this isn't going to last forever
because god, it feels like forevermy cuticles are bright red, picked to the stubs, raw
my head spinning on an axis i can't quite controlyou, on my mind
like clockworktick, tick, tick
it doesn't stop
it won't stopgo away—i want you to go away
but i don't at the same timenothing, no text, no call, no effort in communication
it tears up my stomach, cramps stabbing the entire surface
deeper with each new onenot the regular cramps but the ones that make you nauseous,
the ones that make you want to be held until you can breathe againyou want to cry, you want to yell, you want to scream
you imagine your knuckles colliding with the glass mirror
shattering the ugly image staring back at youglass ricocheting like sprinkling rain on the sad vanity right in front of you
embedding shards of feeling into your very breakable skin
(because after all you are just human and humans are not artificial)blood the corporate of the mess you made
it doesn't make you feel better
you aren't crazy, just infuriated
hurt—really really hurtyou don't want this because "fighting" is torture,
war is casualties and you don't want to die any longersilence is a weapon
and you wield welli'm not supposed to be your enemy
but you cut me open nonethelessit speaks loader than the soft or other times bitter words that lather your tongue
actions screaming bold blackmy hands go to cover my ears only to realize that that is worse
the silence is unbearableand there's nothing i can do, even as traffic continues, as the apartment below bumps music and the washing machine sings its tune saying it's all clean
there is only the silence between you and me
the silence that is slowly killing me-Pelton02
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