Hold Me Tight | JJK

20: Apologies

Song: cardigan- Taylor Swift

Y/N'S POV
The silence in the house kept me awake. I couldn't help but feel a bit guilty that Jungkook and Lisa fought. I wanted to make it right.

I really wanted to talk to Jungkook because I felt like he would feel bad that he left me even though he didn't mean to. I wanted to let him know it was okay and I understood his problem.

I snuck out of my room and waited in front of Lisa's door. I knocked on it and when I heard her say 'come in', I entered. Lisa was sitting on the side of her bed, her back facing me.

"Hey Lisa" I spoke quietly, making her turn to face me

"Oh...hey" Lisa responded, in a dull tone which didn't sound at all like herself

"I'm so sorry. I know you were just trying to help by defending me and that's why you fought. I just wanted make sure you're alright" I spoke

"Why are you apologizing Y/n? You did nothing wrong. I admit it, it was my fault. I invalided Jungkook and because of that I spoke wrongly about his parents and his memories" Lisa spoke

"You were just trying to help me. It wasn't entirely your fault. Jungkook left me there and that's why you said all those things. So please, don't blame yourself" I begged slightly

"Please? For me" I came and held her hands in mine

"Alright, alright. But still, I know I have to apologize to Jungkook because I still take half of the blame. I'll do that in the morning as it's late now. Speaking of late, why didn't you sleep yet?" Lisa asked

"I couldn't sleep thinking about tonight. I just thought I'm partially to blame too" I spoke

"Don't you dare say that. If anything, it's just my and Jungkook's fault. We both went wrong. This happened a lot before, don't worry we'll make up soon" Lisa spoke

Lisa pulled me in for a hug which I couldn't refuse or escape from because she would do it nevertheless.

"Now you, get to bed. Goodnight!!" Lisa smiled

I smiled too seeing her smile and talk in her tone again. At least I made her feel better. She gave me a goodnight forehead kiss like mothers do which I liked.

I never really had my mother for a long time because she died when I was a child. It felt nice seeing someone act as my mother for me. I wanted it so bad. I craved for a mother. But life was unfair.

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I left Lisa's room and walked back to mine. I stopped midway at the front of Jungkook's door. Jimin did talk to him earlier but I doubt it made him feel any better because that's what I heard from Jimin himself.

My hands knocked on the door without a second thought.

WHY DID YOU KNOCK, STUPID HANDS!

I heard a groan from inside and immediately recognized it as Jungkook's. The door was opened by Jungkook who looked quite surprised to see me. His eyes immediately fell down to the ground.

"Can I come in?" I asked

"....Yeah sure" he spoke, letting me in

We both sat down on his couch. By the looks of his face, I knew he felt so guilty for leaving me because he couldn't even look at me.

"Jungkook, please don't feel bad that you left me. I knew you couldn't do such a thing without a reason. And I was right. It wasn't your fault that your memory triggered you" I spoke