The Beauty And The Pericoloso Ragozzo

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"Anong Plano mo... Your pregnant KitKat. Do you think the father need to know about his child." I'm on my brother's house..

I told them about what happened to me and why I run away...

"Tanga kaba... May babae ngang iba diba anong gusto mo ipagsisksikan ni Katarina yung sarili nya dun.. Edi ang ending mas masasaktan sya." Pagkontra naman ni Ava sa sinabi ni Kuya ko.

" okay sorry... Maka tanga naman to." Ehhh did my brother pout? Ehhh that's not cute at all..

"Hoy!! KitKat anong mukha yan.. Parang diring diri ahh" natawa nalang si Ava sa naging reaksyon ko

"Wag kang magpout love.. Baka mamana ng pamangkin mo hahah"

"Tss I don't really like kung magkasama kayong dalawa.. You always bully me.." Pagdadrama ng kapatid ko.

"Kidding aside.. Lalaki ako KitKat, I know what we feel if the woman we love hides a baby to us...we feel useless and the guilt will eat us whole forever... But as your brother I wanna beat him to the pulp for hurting you.. "

"I don't want my child to be like me Kuya. Begging love from a father. We know how hurts and hard that situation is... Because we've been there.." Naiiyak akong inaalala ang mga naging karanasan ko..

I don't want my children begged for love.. I want them to know that love will given wholeheartedly you don't need to begged for it.

My brother look at me with nostalgia written on his face.

"Nothing hurts a child more than seeing their parent/s being a better parent/s to another child. We surely know that experience. People say 'nahh your just jealous' but they didn't know it's not jealousy but rather hurt."

"I know Kuya... I don't want my children to feel that hurt and incomplete love. I will stay single mother if I needed to."

My brother and Ava hugs me warmly.. I'm thankful for Ava. For being their and stayed by my brother's side. And I'm thankful for my brother for him being my brother.

Ava broke our hugs and suggests some place for me to stay.

"You're looking for a place right?"tanong nya sa akin.

"Yeah..."

"I have a place but it's in the province... Santa Monica. You know that place?" Ava said to me.

"I'm not familiar with it."

"Yeah, Santa Monica is a province in Cebu... I studied there from high school to college and my mom brought me a place there and no one uses it now because my sister have her own place.. Thankfully I didn't sell that house. You can use it.. You can start a new there." That's better..

Kinabukasan tinulungan ako nila Kuya at Ava na bumyahe papuntang lugar na sinasabi ni Ava.

The ride is long and tiring... But the place is worth it.

I'm gonna move to the new place without the person I dreamed to be with.

I'm ready for a new chapter with myself and my children.

This is my time to heal... I already hurt many times and all this time I just put some band aid on it... The trauma, the tears, the betrayal, the loneliness... That wasn't my fault but I have to take the responsibility for my healing.

It's been one hell of a ride.

After masigurado ng kapatid ko at ni Ava na maayos na ang lagay ko sa bago kung tirahan. Bumalik din agad sila sa Manila dahil kailangan pa nilang asikasuhin ang ina ni Ava.

Many days have passed and I can say. I like it more here. Santa Monica is a beautiful place, Hindi Karamihan ang nakatira dito unlike sa syudad but city and Santa Monica? I'll differently choose Santa Monica.

2 days ago may nakita akong publishing house.. And yesterday I try to send my story manuscript...

I have so many drafts stories that I did not publish in any platform just because I'm not confident of it... Pero now wala na akong trabaho. I already quit, kaya kailangan ko na nang pagkukunan ng pera dahil Hindi na ako nagiisa.

May pera naman ako na iniwan ng mama ko at yung naipon ko sa pagtatrabaho ko pwede na nga akong Hindi magtrabaho pero Hindi naman pweding Hindi ako maghahanap ng pagkakakita.an...

I have twins... Hindi lang isa kundi dalawa kaya kailangan talaga may pandagdag ako... Hindi naman pweding aasa ako sa iba... Anak ko to, ginusto ko to kaya responsibilidad ko to.

So anyway may naging kakilala na din ako dito sa Santa Monica.. So far mababait naman ang mga tao dito pero Hindi mo talaga maiiwasan na mayroong chismosa..

Living alone teach me many things in life.. You don't need anyone as long as you have yourself.

I'm not yet at that point but I'm almost there. The point of our life na we stop chasing people and yung point ng life na you don't need to begged love from someone na mare realize mo nalang " it's okay to lose people, but never lose yourself."

This days I just always put my mind that God does not allow pain without a purpose.. andito ako sa sitwasyon nato for a reason.

Hoyy ano bato... Nag dradrama ako...

Marcello

Kakatapos ko lang kausapin ang mga tauhan ko... I need them to carry out the plan immediately. We don't have a time.

I let my men bring Carol to her place.

Umakyat na akong kwarto para magpahinga... I'm tired.

Pagpasok ko sa kwarto Katarina is not there, I felt sorry and guilty for what I've done earlier I shouldn't shout at her.

Bunuksan ko ang banyo nagbabakasakaling nandoon parin sya pero wala... Shit! Why I am suddenly felt nervous.

I run into my son's room nagbabakasakaling nandoon si Katarina but to my dismay she's not there...

I run back to our room and open our closet but her clothes is still there... I roam my eyes until I realized something...

She's gone... She left me... FUCKING FUCK SHIT!! this can't be. She cannot leave me..

Tatakbo na Sana ako palabas ng kwarto para hanapin si Katarina ng may nakita akong papel sa ibabaw ng kama.

It's a letter...

Thank you for giving me another reason to build my walls a little bit higher this time.

Oh fuck you Marcello, what have you done!!!!

A/n: I wrote this yesterday kaso Hindi ko natapos kasi umalis kaming bahay and akala ko Hindi ko sya matatapos this day.. Pero luckily sinipag akong tapusin kaya ito... Bunos bago ako maging busy...don't worry next update ko I'll post more chapter pambawi..😅😅 thank you for reading ᥫ᭡ᥫ᭡

Advance merry Christmas and happy new year everyone 💚💚