The last few weeks went by incredibly fast. Emma left after spending about a week at mine. It was so hard to say goodbye again, but I didn't really have any other choice. I couldn't keep taking her with me to training, and for away games it would be completely impossible, luckily I didn't have any away games the week she was with me. Otherwise I would have had a big, big problem.
I knew it was best for the both of us if Emma went back to the Netherlands with my aunt and uncle. So with a big hug and a last look over her shoulder, she walked towards the gate. The wall of the gate was completely made of glass, and so Emma pressed her face against it and waved a warm goodbye with her tiny hand. I waved back, trying to hide my sad expression, and walked towards where I had parked my car.
As soon as I had sat down behind the steering wheel, I broke down. I don't know what had gotten into me. But one tear slipped, and before I knew it I was absolutely bawling my eyes out. I wasn't a cryer. I can't remember I cried this hard since I got the news of the passing of my parents.
I didn't know what it was that made me so sad. Was it Emma leaving? Or was it that right now I really didn't have any family around me anymore? Of course, Lauren felt like a sister to me, but it just wasn't the same. Or was it just too much for me? I still hadn't performed on the pitch, the way I wanted to. Maybe I just wasn't good enough. Or maybe I was secretly still not over the death of my parents. And then the situation with the England camp. I acted like it didn't bother me, but it did, more than I'll ever let anyone know. I just didn't know what to do with myself anymore.
Thinking back about that moment in the car, I was embarrassed. I know it's nothing to be embarrassed about, but I didn't know why I let such stupid things get to me so much. I hated-
I was snapped out of my train of thought by my phone going off. It was Mark Parsons. That's a surprise, I didn't think I'd ever hear from him again. His number was in my contacts, because we had once spoken before. But I'd never actually expected him to call me. Even though I felt a bit hesitant to pick up the phone, since that one time we spoke was like half a year ago and he's only calling me now, I still picked up the phone.
"Hi, is this Stacy Taylor?" I heard him say through the phone. "Yes, it is." I replied as formal as possible, just like I had done with Sarina.
"Hi, I am calling to inform you that we have interest in calling you up for the upcoming international camp." Mark said casually. Well, for me it certainly wasn't casually. I had not expected this at all. "Oh, WoW. Ehm, thank you so much. But what exactly do you mean with 'interest'." I said, emphasising the 'interest'.
"It means we haven't yet made a definite decision, but that we seriously consider calling you up. I just thought I'd call you to share mine and the staff's thoughts. So that you wouldn't be kept in the dark, and you wouldn't be surprised if you received a call from me in the next couple of days." He explained.
That was a lot to process. He, obviously, knows that I spent my previous international break at the England camp. So, maybe he's trying to claim me? Though, I doubt that he would make such an effort to try and get me to play for the Netherlands.
"Thank you, I look forward to receiving the phone call with your decision." Lie. I didn't. Not at all. I didn't want to have to choose. Though, I knew it was inevitable. Eventually, we said goodbye and hung up the phone.
This also reminded me that it was almost two weeks before the international break, and I still hadn't called Sarina with my own decision. I had two days to think about it.
And, not to forget, in a few days we had the game against Arsenal. Which I was really nervous about. I had been training at the best of my ability, to try and earn a spot in the starting eleven.
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It was now a few days later. Yesterday I had received another call from Mark Parsons, confirming that I was indeed called up for the Dutch squad.
This made my decision so much more difficult. I, by now, knew very well that I sucked at making decisions. Though, at least I made one. I was going to call Sarina tomorrow. That meant I had only one day to go over my decision.
This was going to be tough.
A/N
- helloooo, hope you enjoyed this chapter! It's a bit shorter than usual, but maybe I'll drop another update tonight and otherwise tomorrow.
- see you at the next one! Have a lovely day.:)
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FanfictionStacy Taylor is an 18 year old promising midfielder playing for the Dutch club Ajax. But when her parents suddenly pass away, Stacy and her little sister are left alone. Stacy decides to move to England and signs for another club. Where she might j...