A World He Live In (BDSM|ManxMan) A World Series: BOOK TWO

Chapter #11| Doubt

Please play Broken bones by Rupert Pope & Daniel Knight

T R E N T

I'm at the point in my life where I'm doubting my decisions. I cannot forget my past, these scars are a reminder who I belong to. I look out, watching the sunset in the far distance. I close my eyes inhale sharply, I want it to be a dream, I wish none of this were a reality. The pain Asher put me through is indescribable, I thought about suicide plenty of times but never had the strength to do it on my own. Feeling the sharp blade touch my wrist, just one slice and my life will slowly end. 

I oddly wanted Asher to kill me, I just wanted the pain to end, I wanted him to finish what I've started. I hate looking at myself in the mirror, his name written across my pale chest. I dug my nails into my skin, I hate it, I hate it so much, I cannot bare seeing these scars. I was trapped. Asher trapped me, I couldn't escape but he made me believe he loved me, I wanted to be loved and cherished.

I watched the moon slowly rising in the high sky, I smile noticing how beautiful it looked. I never realise how wonderful mother nature can be, I really never got a chance to appreciate it.

"You okay?" asked Seb. I turned around seeing him with two cups of coffee, I smile and moved to the side for him to sit next to me. He handed me the coffee as we sat in silence, feeling the cool wind blow through the window.

"I'm fine, just thinking" I replied

"I'm always here for you Trent, I'll never leave you" he said. I smiled at that comment because I knew it's true, he's the only person who didn't abandon me. My brother wanted nothing to do with me, being gay didn't suite his lifestyle.

"Enough about me, what's going on between you and Master Leon?" I asked. He flinch at that name, I sighed they had history.

"There's nothing really to explain, I-I loved him. We've been together for years, he introduce me to BDSM, I didn't mention him to you because I didn't want my drama to be burden. You've handled enough and considering I'm into BDSM, you've had bad experience with it so I didn't want to scare you" he replied

"Seb it doesn't bother me that you're into BDSM, I'm kinda starting to like it but I-I just can't do it right now" I said. He nodded in response.

"Leon started to act strange, he's been calling someone for well over a month. I didn't want to think he's cheating on me but he's never gave me a reason to doubt expect his unusual phone calls. Long story short, he left, all of his stuff disappeared. I've called close to 100 times and never once he picked up, my heart broke that day Trent, I was never the same. I was so caught up with my own drama that I didn't realise about yours" he said

"I don't understand why he's came back, four years he disappeared and returned out of the blue. I promise to never let a man destroy me like he did, I moved on without him and I will continue living my life without him" he said

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"Trent you're up in 4 minutes" said Fredrick

"Where's Seb?" I asked him

"He should be in the bathroom" he replied. I quickly rush to the bathroom, I'm not going on stage without Seb by my side. I slam the door open seeing finish with his make up. I looked up seeing my scars, I then looked away in shame, Seb covered my scars then we were ready to strip. As we walked out of the bathroom heading towards the stage, I felt someone grip my wrist.

"You're not going on stage" Master Paul growled. I see Master Leon holding Seb in a tight grip, Seb hissed at him the shoved him away as he stomped onto the stage.

"Master Paul, please stop this, we're not together and you do not own me. I'm not doing this to get an easy lay, I'm here to work and make a living" I said. He growled at my response, I didn't care what he thinks so I step around him and make my way to the stage until he pulled me over his shower and walk away from the stage.

"Let go of me! I'm working!" I yelled and slap his back which didn't cause him any pain. Master Paul kicked a random door open then slam it shut, he put me down as I glared at him.

"You cannot do this to me. I do not belong to you so please stop this, I-I have no interest in becoming your submissive" I said. Master Paul leaned forward making my breathe hitch, I gasped feeling his finger touch my chest. I bite down onto my bottom lip to hold back a moan.

"Who did this to you?" he asked. I see his eyes darken as he sees my scars, I gasped and slap his hand away.

"It doesn't concern you, Master Paul" I said

"It does because you're mine, when I want something or someone I get it and what I want is you" he said. My whole body shivered at his response, my heated core is desperate for attention, seeing his cheesy smirk tells me he knows how he's effecting my body.

"Tell me baby, who dares to harm such beautiful body. No one should ever endure such pain" he said. I hear his voice soften that makes me want to melt.

"S-Stop, it's my dark past okay, I wish to not relive it" I replied. Suddenly he pulled me in for a hug, my body froze in shock until I oddly calm instantly. I never liked no one touching me except Seb but feeling Master Paul's touch, felt so real, it felt right.

Why is he making me feel this way? I shouldn't let Master Paul effect me, my heart skips a beat once I know he's around, just feeling his touch can almost make me faint. My small hand touch his chest, I gave him a gentle shove which he didn't budge.

"I mean it, I want you" he whispered. His soft lips kissed my neck, I can never forget those lips. I blush remembering my wet dream, no! I cannot let him get to me .... I belong to Asher, whether I like it or not.