My Everything In His Past (2nd Book of 'In His Past' Series)

Chapter 57

I killed someone.

That was the very first thing that entered Apple Pie's mind while looking at the man laying on the ground in front of her. She didn't mean it, that was the truth. She never wanted to hurt anyone. It had been a pure reflex action of hers to grab that goddamn heavy candle holder. It was also just a mindless instinct of self-defense that she hit him over the head with it. Masyadong mabigat iyon kaya naman hindi niya na-control ang lakas na inexert niya sa pagpalo sa ulo ng lalake. The sharp corner of the candle holder made that big, gushing wound on his temple.

She remembered him touching the bleeding wound and watched as the blood dripped from it. He looked at her before falling forward onto the wooden floor, cracking his forehead loudly as he went down. Agad siyang nag-panic nang makita ang nangyari dito. Paikot-ikot lamang siya sa silid na iyon bago kinuha ang lahat ng lakas ng loob na maibibigay niya at mabilis na nilapitan ang lalakeng nahimatay. 

She approached him on unsteady legs, her stomach felt like she was gonna get sick. Kinuha niya ang kamay nito at hinawakan ang palapulsuhan. Thankfully, his pulse was beating steadily. Dahil sa kaalamang iyon ay kahit papaano'y kumalma na siya. She tended him herself and cleaned his wounds until she was already sure that someone is in their way to that room.

Mabilis niyang dinampot ang isang necklace na may malaking batong ruby at tinago iyon sa maliit na pouch na nakatago sa kaniyang saya. She looked back at the man that she just unintentionally almost killed . . . no . . . he looked so awfully pale that she swore that he won't make it. She tried checking his pulse again with cold, shaking fingers but found out that she can't because of her nervousness.

"Bibitayin ka nila dahil sa ginawa mo, alam mo iyan." Napatalon siya dahil sa gulat at nilingon ang kaniyang likod. A big, long mirror greeted her and she saw her own reflection, or rather Christina's. Her face stained with uncontrollable tears and her hands full of blood. "Tumakbo ka at magtago. Papatayin ka nila." Napadungo siya sa kaniyang mga kamay at nahintakutan nang makita ang dugo roon. It flowed like an endless waterfall, staining the hem of her baro. She wiped it on her blood-soaked saya but it won't go away. She tried again and again but the blood kept on returning.

She opened her mouth to scream but nothing came out other than her sobs. It started as a simple sniffle and then it escalated into full-blown bawl. Halos hindi na siya makahinga dahil sa kaniyang mga iyak at nang akala niya na mahihimatay na rin siya dahil sa pag-iyak niya ay bigla naman siyang nagising.

Apple Pie almost fell from the bed after waking up in that horrid dream. She was gasping for air as if she just resurfaced from a deep ocean. Hinawakan niya ang kaniyang dibdib upang pakalmahin iyon dahil pakiramdam niyang para siyang aatakihin sa puso dahil sa bilis ng tibok niyon. Kung totoong panaginip ba iyon o hindi ay wala siyang ideya. It felt so real that she believed that it was a memory.

Ala-ala ni Christina.

Did she kill someone?

Naiiyak niyang tinignan ang mga kamay at nagpasalamat sa Diyos nang makita na walang dugo doon. Her hands were clean but it was trembling badly. Napahilamos na lamang siya sa kaniyang pawisang mukha at pinigilan ang sariling maiyak. Ito ang unang beses na nanaginip siya patungkol kay Christina.

Nang makalma na niya ang sarili ay nanghihina siyang lumingon sa may dresser ng kwarto niya. Nandoon niya tinago ang necklace na nasa panaginip niya. That glinting ruby made her question if Christina did own it or if she took it from someone else. Iyon ang nagsilbing ebidensya sa kaniya na hindi lamang simpleng panaginip ang nakita niya kanina. It was Christina's memory. 

Pagod siyang bumalik sa pagkakahiga at tinutok lamang ang mga mata sa kisame. Paniguradong hindi siya makakatulog ngayong gabi. Hindi niya kayang makalimutan ang nakita kanina. 

She was about to stand up and light a candle so she can read a book or something, but she then heard a soft noise of walking outside her door. Nagtataka man ay bumalik siya sa pagkakahiga, mas lalong kumunot ang kaniyang noo nang makita na binuksan ng kung sino man iyon ang kaniyang pintuan.

Pinikit niya ang kaniyang mga mata at hinintay kung anong gagawin ng taong iyon sa kwarto niya ngunit nagulat siya nang maramdaman niya ang biglang pagbuhat nito sa kaniya. Magpa-panic na sana siya ngunit kumalma siya kaagad nang maamoy ang familiar scent ni Yohan.

Naguguluhan man kung anong ginagawa nito ay nanatili pa rin siyang nakapikit at hinayaan itong dalhin siya sa kung saan. Matapos naman ang ilang segundong paglalakad ay naramdaman niya ang pagtigil ng lalake at tila pagbukas nito sa isang kwarto. She can feel him closing the door after they entered the room. She also felt him walking towards a bed and laying her gently there, as if afraid to wake her up. 

Lumayo ito sa kaniya ng ilang segundo at hindi niya alam kung anong ginagawa nito ngunit kalaunan naman ay naramdaman niya ang paggalaw ng kama. She then felt his hands adjusting her position. He took her left arm and wrapped it around his body, he then guided her head to his chest. Gulat at pagtataka ang kaniyang nararamdaman ngayon ngunit hindi niya pinaalam dito na gising siya.

I'm not sleepwalking. Ito mismo ang lumilipat sa akin. Yawa mani siya uy!

Gusto niyang magreklamo dahil sa ginagawa nito sa kaniya ngunit hindi niya magawa lalong-lalo na nang maramdaman niya ang paghalik nito sa tuktok ng ulo niya. She felt so safe. Para bang pinapahiwatig nito na walang makakapanakit sa kaniya basta nandito siya sa bisig ng lalake.

All the nightmares and what-ifs were gone. The only thing that remained was the overwhelming feeling of her love for him. Only him.

It felt so nice being with him, not until the next morning . . . 

natadyakan na naman siya.

A/N: Short chapter lang ito pero really thank you sa mga sumagot sa Author's Note ko! If ever na may problema sa mga chapters, don't hesitate to message me para maayos natin~