𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝙸 𝚜𝚊𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞~a holes fanfic~[zigzag x reader]

Acute Paranoia-7

~knuckles pov~
I woke up, not to the horn, but to two little hands lightly shaking me awake. I ignored it, but then I heard sniffling. I opened my eyes to see zero sitting on the end of my bunk, crying. I didn't know why so the first thing I did was ask him what was wrong. He just shook his head, and I knew he obviously didn't wanna talk about it, he just needed someone to be there for him. "Hey buddy, it's ok. Come here" I soothed, while patting my lap. He slowly crawled beside me in bed and snuggled into my side. Zero was like a brother to me, and I'd do anything for him. I patted his back and rubbed my hand through his curly hair while he cried. He started to apologize, but I told him not to. I felt bad for the kid. He never even had a real home. The least I could do was be a shoulder to cry on. He'd made a tear stain on the side of my shirt, but I told him it was fine and that it would dry. I sat there comforting him, until he spoke up. "Can you sing any?" He whispered. I hadn't sang in a long time, but I used to love it. "I can if you want me to." I said with a smile. He nodded his head and I thought of a song that my mom used to sing to me. It was my favorite. I didn't mind singing to him, because I knew he'd never had anyone to sing to him. I started to sing "You are My Sunshine"to him:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray,
You'll never know dear, how much I loved you, please don't take my sunshine away. The other night dear, as I lay sleeping.I dreamt I held you in my arms. When I awoke dear I was mistaken so I hung my head and cried
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know dear, how much I loved you, please don't take my sunshine away.

Zigzag then joined in with me for the last part.
Please don't take my sunshine away

I loved that lullaby. By now I was almost crying too. But I didn't. Knuckles didn't cry. When zigzag heard me singing, he crawled up on my bunk as well. Zigzag was hugged unto my other side. It was almost as if I had two little boys. One a brother, and one my love. "I love when you sing." Zig sighed, playing with hair. Zero was asleep at this point. "Thank ya" I whispered. He told me it made him feel safe.
We all three fell asleep in my bunk, and I slept quite well.
We woke up to the horn this morning and I felt refreshed. As I got ready, I thought of last night. I'd never seen zero so sad and distressed, it made me worry about him. I wondered what he was crying about. I walked out of the tent with magnet, and we were talking about dinosaurs. "The t-Rex is my favorite." I say "uh uh, the pterodactyl is the best." Magnet argued. "You wanna hear a joke about pterodactyls?" I asked, wiggling my eyebrows. "Nope." Magnet said, popping the "p". I told him anyways. Magnet was definitely one of my closest friends at camp. "Why can't you hear a pterodactyl use the bathroom?" I asked. "I have no idea." Magnet chuckled. I cleared my throat. "BECAUSE THE P IS SILENT!!" I yelled, full of excitement. He started laughing so hard he was wheezing. I laughed too, but not as hard as magnet was. I guess he really enjoyed that joke. We all grabbed our shovels and headed to our spot, zero leading the way. It was a normal digging day, until Stanley found something near the end of the day. We all huddled around him, and we all talked about it. The others thought it was a bullet, but it was obviously a lipstick tube. When zigzag got it, he said, "K.B, yeah, that belongs to Keith Barrenger." He said. I knew exactly who he was talking about. "Who's that?" X-ray asked. "He was in our math class." Zigzag said as a matter of factly. Everyone laughed and then armpit said, "wait, 'our'? You two went to school together?!" Armpit looked at me, then zig, then back at me. "Oh yeah." I said calmly. I didn't think it was a big deal. "I didn't know that. That's kinda cool." Squid said. I shrugged as I grabbed the lipstick tube-bullet thing. It didn't look familiar, but it was pretty cool. "I'll turn this into mom." X ray insisted. "No, you can't." Stanley asked. This guy was weird. "Is that so? Why?" Asked x. "Well, your hole's already dug." Stanley said. "And?" X asked. "Turn it in tomorrow, and you'll get the whole day off." Stanley said. I take it back. Stanley wasn't weird. He was a genius. "I like your thinking man." X said. Stanley had found a fossil earlier too, and asked if he could get the day off for that. The kid has his blonde moments. As we were walking back after digging holes, the boys were talking about some random stuff. I was zoned out in my own little world until i heard Stanley ask about cameras. "Oh yeah." Zigzag said. "She's got cameras and microphones everywhere. She's got em in the tents, yeah, and in the showers" zigzag paused, and I hit his arm playfully. "She does not have em in the showers man." Armpit said. "Nah don't listen to zig man" squid said, "I read his file. Yeah he suffers from uh-" squid thought for a moment. "Acute paranoia! Yeah." Squid said. My heart sunk. It reminded me of my dad. Did zig actually suffer from acute paranoia? The dinner bell interrupted my thoughts. I'll talk to him later. We all ate dinner. Well, I picked at my dinner. I didn't really have an appetite. I never really had an appetite. I only ate an apple At lunch and sometimes a graham cracker. I had lost a lot of weight, but I was gaining muscle. I knew I needed to eat, but it was almost like my body wouldn't let me. I was in my own little world until I felt a hand around my waist. I flinched at first, but when I saw it was zig, I relaxed. "You ok?" He asked worriedly. "Yeah! Yeah I'm fine." I said as I smiled a closed smile and returned to my food. I just couldn't eat it. "I'm not insulting you, but you need to eat." Zigzag whispered gently. "I know, but it's almost like I can't. I'm sorry, but I-" "hey, hey, don't sweat it, it's alright I get it." He reassured me. He knew how I felt. "I love you." He said gently. "And I love you." I said as I smiled at him. I never said "love you too", I always just said "I love you" because I feel like when you say "I love you too.", you're just saying it to say it. But when I really mean it, I just say "I love you". My mom taught me that when I was little, and it just became a habit. A good habit. After dinner, I walked out and grabbed zigzags hand gently. "Can we talk?" I asked. I hope he knew he wasn't in trouble. His face got pale. He did think he was in trouble. "Oh ok." He said in a quivering voice. "You're not in trouble zig, I just gotta ask you something." I chuckled. He seemed a bit more relieved. "What squid said earlier about your acute paranoia, is that true?" I asked. I hope he'd understand. "Oh no it's not bad! I just sometimes over think a little bit, and I freak myself out sometimes that's all. You don't need to worry." He said, reassuringly as he cupped my face in his hands. I had an uncomfortable look on my face. Not because of zig, but because of my dad. I thought that it was a joke. It brought back memories. It hurt. Tears threatened to fall from my eyes. When zigzag looked at me, he looked terrified. He thought he'd done something wrong. "Hey it's ok- why are you crying? Hey I'm ok! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. It's gonna be okay." He hugged me close and I held onto him like my life depended on it. He smelled like waffles, and I don't know why. It made me feel safe. He made me feel safe. I sniffled before I talked. "You didn't do anything, it's just- my dad had acute paranoia. And he killed himself because it got so bad, I just thought, yknow, what if-" he cut me of my kissing my lips, and holding my face gently. We kissed for a while, until we pulled away for air. "I ain't goin no where knuck. Not without you. And I promise I would never to that to myself, or you. I promise." He held out his pinkie, for a pinkie swear. I connected mine with his, we both kissed our thumbs, and then we connected them. I then wrapped my arms around his neck and he bent down and hugged me from my waist. He then stood back up, and took me with him, so he was standing up straight, and my feet were dangling in the air. We stayed like this, until he set me down and he grabbed my hand and we walked into the tent. I slept in zigzags bunk, because he wanted me to understand that he wasn't going anywhere. That's why I loved him.

This one was ok :/ I was super tired when I wrote this one soooo. But I hoped you liked it!
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