Amidst the Clandestine Heartache

Kabanata 26

Kabanata 26

Calcifer's POV

Days turns to weeks, weeks turns to months and months turns to years. Anim na taon na pala ang nakakalipas pero hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin akong lead kung nasaan si Cheska.

Kung nasaan ang asawa ko.

“Anak, still no clue?” mama asked and sit beside me in my bed. Hindi ako pumasok sa opisina at nanatili lang buong araw dito sa mansiyon.

Kasama na naming muli si mama at maayos na silang muli ni papa.

Para nga silang mga teenager na nagliligawan. Every year, umaalis sila ng Pilipinas para raw mag honeymoon. Natatawa na nga lang ako sa kasweetan ng mga magulang ko.

I let them be, ilang taon din ang nawala sa kanila kaya kailangan nilang bumawi sa isa't isa.

“Ma, I don't know if I could still find my wife. Chances are getting weaker as days passing by,” malungkot kong sinabi sa mama ko. She then carried me into her embrace. She caress my back.

“Huwag kang mawalan ng pag-asa, anak. Mahahanap mo si Cheska at kapag nahanap mo siya, huwag mo na siyang pakawalan pa. Mabait ang Diyos, anak kaya magtiwala at manalig ka sa kaniya para mahanap mo na ng tuluyan si Cheska.”

“What if I won't find her anymore, mama? What if the destiny is really the reason why I can't find my wife? Mama, I need my wife. I need her by my side.”

I'm scared. So scared. Scared that I won't find her. I'm losing hope. I wanted to be with her badly. I wanted to tell her that she's my wife. That I use my power so that she'll be legally mine, forever.

I know it's bad but I'm just too inlove with her. And I also knew that too much love can destroy you.

“Anak, don't lose hope. Makinig ka sakin, Cal. It'll be all worth it, anak. The pain you felt will washed away. Just be patient. Wait for that day to happen. Mahahanap mo rin siya, anak.”

Hindi na ako nagsalita. Hirap na hirap na rin kasi ako. Yumakap nalang ako kay mama. Mama is one of the reasons why I'm still sane.

She never forgets to check me. She always make sure that I'm not doing something bad that I will regret in the end.

“Sleep, Cal. Kailangan mo iyon,” mama said. She tucked me into bed. She then kissed my forehead before she take her leave.

Sa pag-alis ni mama ay nanumbalik sa balintataw ko ang araw na iyon. Ang araw na naging opisyal kong naging asawa si Cheska.

“Mon chemin, what's this?” Cheska asked. She's a little bit drunk and I was the reason for that. Nilasing ko siya dahil gusto kong ipapirma sa kaniya ang marriage contract namin. Natatakot kasi ako na mawala sakin si Cheska. I'm scared that I might lose her.

“Sign it, aishi and I promise you that you'll not gonna regret it.”

It's a marriage contract. A legal marriage contract.

Ayaw ko na siyang mawala pa sa akin. Alam ko at ramdam kong may takot sa kaniyang puso kaya kung sakali mang gagawa siya ng hakbang na iwanan ako ay sasabihin ko sa kaniyang kasal na kami.

Hindi ko pa siya naipapakilala sa mga magulang ko dahil masyado pang magulo ang pamilya ko. I'm still fixing what Seline did to my mama and papa's marriage.

Seline's the reason why my mama and papa's marriage fails. And I'm not gonna forgive her for what she did to my family. Because of that, hindi ko pa naipapakilala ang babaeng totoong minamahal ko. Ang totoong buhay ko. Ang totoong kayamanan ko. My true treasure.