꧁𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘰𝘰𝘯꧂

Honeydew

Suga POV

"Hinata can you repeat that"
"I like Tuskishima"
"Why How when"
"I don't know but I hate it now"

I understood a little bit how he could say that he hated having feelings for tuskishima after all he did so many terrible things not just now but before when the first years were new to the team
But usually, when you have a crush you're happy and giddy you know you become brighter and all that other stuff it's just really weird seeing the opposite effect happen when somebody has a crush instead of feeling happy and acting as sweet as sugar they're quite irritated sad just bitter

Hinata walked outside the gym and sat on the steps of the gym the sky was cloudy like the sky would cry soon

"Why do I like him since I knew how terrible he was I never wanted to hurt him if only I knew I would have stayed away"

Tears running down his face just like a river his eyes are the color of spider lilies he's a mess what can I say he truly resents his feelings I don't know what to say all I can do is just sit down with him and try to calm him down in a way I've never seen him act like this

He's crying the way you would cry if a family member dies that's how much he's hurting right now the only way I can describe what it feels like looking at him crying so much like that it feels like I'm looking at a dying flower desperately wanting water desperately wanting somebody to take care of them to pay attention to them to give them love to not hurt them but only getting hurt by pest and insects only to be forgotten and to die alone in the dry sun

"He didn't think my opinions were important  he was only a temporary substitute for the affection I need and I feel so stupid for falling for him that stupid face and sugarcane like words everything that we've built together all the trust we've had is now gone but I'm still here yearning for somebody to show love for me"

He is broken isn't he after  so many Traumatic things happened to him in such a short amount of time only the gods know what's been going on behind the scenes I think everybody thought about this but what if we weren't there when Kageyama tried to hit Hinata what would've happened and I guess that Hinata has some childhood trauma as well so it only makes things worse

"Hinata tell me whatever you want to say let out all your emotions and feelings right now if you want to don't worry I'm here and I'm not leaving I'm not going to leave it broken"
"Thank you suga"

I hugged Hinata
even though we might be getting close to being adults we're still kids we're still minors occasionally we act like it we cry and just want somebody to hold us
right now I think that Hinata is being very vulnerable I'm happy because that means that he trusts me enough to show his vulnerable side but I also hate it so much because somebody caused him to feel this way

"Suga thank you for listening to me I should be going back home soon it's getting dark after all"
"Oh yeah of course I'll just finish cleaning by myself there's only a little bit to do anyway"
"Ok thank you"

I let him go back home if I would've had it my way I would've walked him home make sure that he was OK maybe get some cake along the way so that way if he cried again he could at least eat something sweet to try to boost up his energy but I could tell that he wanted to be alone maybe he wanted to cry some more by himself yelling at absolutely nobody could help him

At times like these sometimes you just need to be alone and have nobody around but I hope that he doesn't isolate himself from the rest of the world

Hinata POV

I feel terrible I just want to spit my guts out
I keep thinking of him I don't want to even say his name in fear that I might start to cry again although we didn't spend a lot of time together and we just became friends recently I can't help but think about all the fun things that we did together and the other times he was there for me