crying glitter and drinking stars

missing u

seven years ago
seems like a long time
to twelve year old kid

seven years ago
is short time to
a nineteen year old girl

seven years ago
i would've stayed
safely on your lap

watching the football
game that i didn't
understand with you

at that time you were
the only boy
in my world

and seven years later
i am out all
the time

with no one to
protect me
or explain the game

there are other boys
and they're mean,
you know, dad?

they don't kiss
me goodnight
like you did

they pull me
into bed with
them and make me sick

they don't make
you Mac and Cheese
like you did

they hand me a
pot and tell me to
make it for them

they don't clean
up my scrapes
and bruises

after all, they're
the ones who
put them there

it's been seven years,
all i can think about
is missing you

i don't have you
anymore and
sometimes

i feel like
i am just all
by myself

i miss you