[After the events of The Winter Soldier] "When I was 16, I realised that I was in love with my best friend." Steve Rogers has known for a long time that he felt something more for his best friend. He thought that the feelings had passed in the years after Bucky's death, but now they have met again, he struggles to decide what to do. Should he try to act on the suppressed feelings of the 30s and 40s, or keep pushing them away? . The pain of finding and losing his friend causes Steve to turn to Sam for help. He gets the idea of writing (or dictating) a log, to help him lay out what he feels. This is the log he creates. . While Steve struggles, he remembers the decades that he and Bucky shared, going from schoolboys to students to soldiers, together. . . Mostly fluff. Telling the story of Steve's feelings for Bucky. I may do a second part from Bucky's pov, if this turns out good.